10 Bagay na gusto kong sabihin at itanong sa'yo

1. Ngayon ko lang finally nalaman kung saang pelikula at sino ang nagsabi ng linyang ito (na chinallenge namin sa'yo dati pero napahiya kami kasi walang nakakaalam samin ng sagot): "Immortality, take it. It's yours."

2. Ano ang nagtutulak sa'yo para sumama sa grupo namin kahit na tecnically ay hindi ka part ng aming crowd? Napakabilis mong yayain tsong. Not that it's a bad thing.

3. Dahil sa'yo e hindi ko na nakakausap ng matino si Kuya Randy at hindi na'ko madalas tumitingin sa gawing yun.

4. Pinapasaya mo ko. You give me goosebumps. You make me wanna go to AS kahit na wala na kong business dun whatsoever.

5. Ano kaya ang naiisip o iniisip mo pag nasa Up There tayo habang obviously ay pinagtutulakan ako ng mga napakababait kong mga kaibigan?

6. Kapag nakakasama kita tumatahimik ang mundo ko. Pero after ng ilang set nyo, bumabalik na din sa dati kasi alam kong may tama ka na din.

7. Sobrang awkward nung nangyaring yun satin that first night at hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako tinatantanan ng mga tao. Super embarassing moment yun!

8. Masama na kung masama ang dating pero sana di mo na sya mamiss. Hindi sya para sayo. At lalong hindi rin ako no! Pero I have this feeling, we all do, that you are much better off with someone who can swim well into your deep realm.

9. Sana hindi ka nagba-blog or wala kang koneksyon sa site na 'to dahil kung hindi..patay tayo dyan!

10. Alam mo na ata na crush kita e! Oh well. Talu-talo na. Wala namang mawawala sakin e.

Extraordinary Christmas for an equally extraordinary me

Ha! Forgive the title. But I've recently realized that each of us are extraordinary in our own way. Anyway, on to the more essential subject.

Bago ang lahat, HABERDEY muna kay Papa Jesus! Amen.

I haf to say that this is one of the most, if not the greatest, memorable christmas in my entire life. Previous christmases i've celebrated weren't that much especially on my earlier days (which i don't even have the vaguest idea for the life of me) although there were probably some memorable times too. Hindi ko na ma-contain into words ang feeling. The feeling of having uber nice and happy family. It's well, the biggest thing that is lacking in my life. But being with them (and other families i've been with) compensates for the family that I never had. And even just that is enough of a gift from God.

And i really, really love the gifts that i got. Every single one of them. The new slippers. Pride and Prejudice. The BFG. Hankies. And a new shirt. To quote popsie 'thank God for small favors'. though i didn't find these stuff as 'small favors'. :)

Salamat ulit!

Hope everyone else around had a good fun.

Goal next year: magkaroon na ng mp3. yep. ganun lang kasimple ang buhay. Because i believe in ' No Music, No Life' mantra. to graduate and then find a job soon after. Amen to that.

If given a chance to wish something para sa next year, kalabisan bang humingi ng:

1) pambayad ng sagada trip next year (on january)?
2) a triple A rechargeable battery?
3) makasama ang crush ko sa birthday nya?

you be the judge.

Last Hurrah for 2006

Although last minute na nangyari ang mga bagay-bagay, simula sa pagpapareserve ng venue at pag-aasikaso ng mga foodie, i'm real proud to say that UP Explore did it once again. Even if we're really low on funds we made it through the Christmas Party cum Applicant's Night in what better venue than the Balay Kalinaw. Yes. Ang BALAY KALINAW ng UP.

Kahit na nagsimula ang araw ko na 'to na windang na windang I'm, sooo glad na na-accomplish ko lahat ng gagawin ko. At plus na lang talaga ang panonood ng Annual Oblation Run. Haha. Honestly, wala sya sa schedule ko that day pero since sarado pa naman ang office na hinihintay ko, aba, might as well watch na lang. Lo and behold! kahit nasa second floor lang ako at feeling ko wala naman talaga kong makikita aba, akalain mong dumaan sila sa harap namin mismo sa 2nd floor! Yung tipong kahit na mag-one-on-one pa kami ng lahat ng tumakbo e di magkukulang ng partner kasi ganun kakonti ang tao dun. hehe.

After watching the infamous OR, i headed to OSA para magpapirma kay Ma'am Cuevas at kahit na pinaghintay nila ko ng apat na oras e sige, fine, okay na yun sakin kasi kailangan talaga namin yun para magamit na namin ng officially ang Balay.

Ngapala, isa ito sa pinakamalungkot na taon sa buhay ko sa UP and I'm sure for most of the Peyups' population. Wala na ngang Lantern Parade, naipasa pa ang Tuition Fee Increase! Punyemas na Buhay talaga! Kaya kailangang maging last sem ko na talaga 'to.

At since birthday ni Eman kinabukasan at last day na namin sa UP for this year, natural lang na may inuman! Muli, UP THERE na naman ito. Pramis, ito ang pinakamalaking event na nangyari samin (at least yung mga frequent customers nila). Super andaming tao. Aside sa mga usual peeps like Pam, Van, Eman, Me, and Juraine ay may mga bagong recruit ang Up There. Kasama din ang mga UPX mems like Aileen, Essie, Patrick, Izay, Darryl, Hummy, Jaja (and Cox), Joey. Dumating pa sila Rain, Ice, Mica at grupo nila Mon at Darren. Napakasaya ng mood. May mga taong kahit noon lang nagkita ay nag-bond ng parang 10 years na silang magkasama. Wasakan moment? syempre meron din! At lahat na yata ng toast e nai-toast na namin. Nung may dumating pang ibang taga-UP din mas naging masaya pa kasi total singing performance sila. Ang saya maging taga-UP. Lahat talaga tayo may itinatagong kajologan deep inside our soul. HAHA!
Wapaaak talaga.

Para sa mga Up There Mates...Cheers!

Taghirap Na Naman. Boo-hoo.

My Christmas Wish List (Yea ba!)

Pero bago ang lahat, random thoughts muna from the past days. Kung hindi man ako bored or bum ng mga panahong yan, then i guess it's what you can call the other "creative side" of mine. Ha! As if.

* Supertyphoon Durian (as what i like to call her) got probably lost or disoriented or whatever a typhoon does when she hit Philippines. Hey, it's just an idea.

*A case-scenario question is a good brain stimulator and a nice way to talk to your crush. Gosh. I hope he doesn't have a multiply account or a blog or a friend-friend-friend.. Biglang na-praning.

*Crosswords and Sudoku puzzles rule my bum times. And i have a lot of it. God i just want it to be 2007 already so that i can steer my life into new horizons. finally.

*Honey? Anong ibig sabihin ng 2-3 bond years? Sorry sa kaengotan!

*After reading the Great Glass Elevator, i realized that a space hotel is kinda cool (minus the USA after the space hotel though). Roald Dahl was an amazing, amazing guy. He's one of the writer i probably would've wanted to meet (along with Stephen King and Ann Martin) if he was still alive. Sigh. Must have been real cool to have him as a father or a grandfather or an uncle or a godfather. you get the point.

*Salman Rushdie had once been a very sensational guy. Just finished reading The Rushdie Letters at naliwanagan na naman po ako.

My grown-up and not-so-grown-up Christmas wish list:

Of course I do not expect to receive every single one of these but it's a wish list and i can put every imaginable and unimaginable stuff that my heart desires BUT, the practical (and kuripot) side of me screams that it doesn't have to be that way. Times are hard and so is the money to get all this and i don't have an account in Cayman Island nor do i have Donald Trump for my father or Oprah Winfrey as my mother so let's just get real here.

1. Socks (anything but plain white)
2. a pocket dictionary (i think i'm behind with big words again)
3.Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen.yung Dover Thrift Collection lang kasi PhP 129.00 lang.hehe.
4. The Orange Puzzle Book. Sa NBS. I fell in love with the contents and of course, the color itself.
5. A new Shirt.
6. 10 dollars. Please don't ask me why. :)

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if i have my way (and resources) i really would've want to have the following:
CDs

1.Angels & Airwaves- We Don't Need to Whisper
2.Switchfoot- Beautiful Letdown
3.My Chemical Romance- The Black Parade
4.Snow Patrol- Eyes Open
5.Sugarfree- Talaarawan
6.Sandwich- Thanks to the Moon's Gravitational Pull (the last album they did with Marc A. in it)

Other Stuff:

*A plain army green Dupe slippers
*Life of Pi by Yann Martel
*Creative (that's about what i think i can afford in due time)
*late christmas stuff to give to important people.
So, next year i must, MUST have a job or sideline o kahit anupamang raket in order to have these extras. sobrang bored na din ako ako sa oras na pinapalagpas ko when i could be doing a thousand other significant things in my life. So help me God.
Happy 1st of December!

Of Mumble, Lovelace, Ramon and Borat*

Sina Mumble, Lovelace at Ramon ay mga characters ng Happy Feet (truly happy nga sila!) Sobrang funny si Ramon at ang kanyang mga Chicano hombres. Walang kasing kulit. Si Mumble ay super cutieee kasi nung baby pa lang sya at mind you, ngayon lang ako nakakita ng penguin na blue-eyed. San ka pa! Unfortunately, i have this freaky feeling pag nagsasalita sya kasi si Frodo talaga ang napipicture ko sa boses na yun ni Elijah Wood.So, sorry talaga. Masaya naman sya lalo na yung mga unang parts (kahit na puro mga kiddos and parents ang kasama namin sa theater!) kaso aba, nung bandang huli na tama bang may lumabas na tao at nagsasasayaw pa kasama ng mga penguins??C'mon! Kung ako bata dun mapapa- "hey, what's that Mom (or dad)?". hehe.

As for Borat, super laugh trip din sya as expected with few sloppiness and yuckiness in between. as in mapapa-ewwww ka na lang. Grabe yun si Sacha Baron Cohen! Kawawa naman mga taga Kazakhstan, ano kayang nasabi nila sa mga sarili nila?! At ang pinakamalaking tanong nung gabing iyon: Si Pamela Anderson nga ba talaga yun? wa wa wee wa!

*courtesy of Kimi, my movie buddy and benefactor. nyahaha!

Cine Europa Marathon

Hay. It's really true that some of the best things in this life are for free. Since libre naman sya at bored to death na ko sa kakabasa na lang, na-trip-an ko na manood. grabe! 3 gabi ko ding kinarir ang Shangri La. although maraming nanonood at pahirapan talaga makapasok dahil sa limited tickets, i managed to watch 8 out of 12 films. at pinagsisisihan ko talaga na hindi namin napanood ni kimi yung Breakfast in Pluto (naubusan kasi kami ng ticket!). oh well. not bad na rin yun. syempre lahat tayo may favorites when it comes to films and i'll post here kung anuman ang naging peyborit ko. haha!

1. Karo and the Lord (Austria)- grabe nakakaiyak kasi sya. tsaka maganda din yung story. medyo mababw lang pero masaya at nakakaaliw si Karolin lenz. :)

2. One Way Ticket to Mombasa (Finland)- crushie ko yung bidang guy dito! parang cross between tom welling and gael garcia bernal. hehe. dahil din sa film na 'to gusto ko ng pumunta ng Finland (kahit super lamig dun!) para makanta ko din yung 'mombasa' song ng No Future Today.

3. Simon(The Netherlands)- eto talagang pagkatapos mong manood parang wala na lang sayo makakita ng boobs. haha! maganda ang friendship nila. as in.

4. The Miracle of Bern (Germany)- Ang kyut kasi nung bata tsaka kahit set sya in 1954 maaaliw ka sa kanila. at dahil din dito nalaman ko na 22 ang players ng football. at medyo parang gusto ko nang mag-research about football!

5. Russian Dolls (France)- medyo about romance and career 'to e. yung bida has an eerie resemblance to ewan mcgregor. maayos naman sya. From Paris napunta sa Russia tas napunta sa England. Ang cute din ni Kevin Bishop dito (at nung character nya). whew! talagang nag-aral sya ng Russian para dun sa babae.

6. Everybody Famous (Belgium)- isa pa 'tong napaka-unique na film. hanep sa twist! at mapapakanta ka pa ng "Lucky Manuelo". :)

7. Zelary (Czech Republic)- eto daw yung nominated sa Oscar for Best Foreign Film..hmmm..medyo may mga boring na scenes at ang haba kasi. pero ayos lang.

8. When the Sea Rises (Belgium)- ang pinaka-boring na film na napanood ko.. parang nagtipid sila sa cast, sa gamit, sa lahat! pati sa story na din.

yan ang giant schedule board ng Cine Europa sa Shang Cineplex



Dahil hindi namin mahanap flag ng Germany (for some reason) dito na lang ako sa UK lumapit. hehe.

yiddih yaddah

Lately, i've been having bipolar disorder. I really can't say why because everyone would simply think that it is STUPID. very, indeed.it's so high school i thought im totally way past that phase. But what can i do? it's exactly what i've become whenever.... lang naman.

Anyway, as for news on the other side or commonly known as my normal life, i still haven't paid my tuition. but don't worry! tomorrow it shall be. thanks again to my ever kind and generous friend for letting me "borrow". hay. by the time i hit 30, i probably would still owe a lot of person. haha! basta just wait. I've just sent resumes in anything i think i can do well somehow. kimi emailed me one to apply for. ngapala, she's back na from kota! weee..congrats kimimay!

I have so many stories to tell but just can't put it here yet. Yung Cine Europa marathon, sagada and baguio trip, new "raket" (sana totoo na 'to this time!). So for the meantime eto na muna.

Mondays suck (at least for me)

ilang bad news ba ang kayang ma-take ng tao in their lifetime? just wondering. lunes na lunes bumabaha ng bad news para sakin. No reg mat for me dahil naka-hold ako. baket ikamo? dahil underassessed daw ako sa geog 109 lab!!! pambihirang patis. hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako tinatantanan nun. at isa pa: need math 14 classcard! ano ba? gusto nyo pa talagang napapahiya ako or talagang sabik kayo sa mga taong nauulanan ng kasingkuhan? wag sana kayong magsasaya sa kasawian ng ibang tao no. bwiset kahit sa kahuli-hulihang sandali mo sa unibersidad ayaw kang patahimikin ng diwa ng registration. Hay. Again, welkam to UP my dawg!

at isa pang big bad news. binagsak ko lang naman ang removal exam ko sa stat!!! ano ba ineng watshapeninginyourtinyandcrampedmind ba?!!! kahit yata si Lord napapailing na lang kung nasan man sya nung mga panahong yun. at si jose rizal ata gumugulong na rin sa hukay nya dahil ang pag-asa ng bayan ay naging pabigat ng bayan! buti na lang kahit ganun yung teacher naming yun, naawa pa din sya sakin (muntik ko na kasing iyakan para sa another chance!) so, ang moral lesson? mag-invest sa acting prowess mo. you'll never know where it'll get you....SYEMPRE HINDI NO! moral lesson ay mag-aral ng mag-aral ng mag-aral at huwag sasabak sa isang exam ng walang rebyu rebyu, unless 190 IQ mo. at kung 190 man ang IQ mo wala kang puwang sa removals kaya go away!

hay. sa lahat ng mga nangyari syempre light na ko unlike kahapon. haha. and now i know how pam felt that fateful day, slightly. masakit talaga sa heart.

it's not sane...*

hindi pa offiially tapos ang sem kong 'to. kelan ko kaya masasabi with all pride na natapos na ang 1st sem, 06-07 for me? hayy..Lord, ibalato Mo na po ang 183 samin! Waaahhh. St. Jude (ang bagong patron saint namin!), sana wag kayong magsasawa sa kakapakinig sa sirang plakang request namin. :)

since maraming kabiguan at ka-depression-an sa buhay ang mga tao (including me of course!), i'm really thankful na may mga kaibigan ako sa paligid ko na hindi nagsasawang magsabi ng words of encouragement kahit napaka-hopeless na talaga (hello! st. jude na nga e!). basta. although kagabi ay isang napakalungkot na araw sa buhay ng isang kaibigan, alam naman nyang andito lang naman kami sa tabi nya math 100 or how many takes pa man.makonsensya na ang dapat makonsensya pero talaga, sumira ka ng isang pangarap e!siguro hindi mo pa naransan ang umasa sa isang pangarap na gagradweyt dapat ngayong sem pero poof, it was gone in what? 30 seconds of your blabbering. oh well.

at hindi ko man yun dapat gabi, well, i don't know how to make a logic out of everything that's happening..Lord? are you making fun of my feelings (no pun intended)? wala lang. alam Mo namang matagal na kong nakipag-bargain sa'yo di ba? ipagpapalit ko ang lovelife at masayang pamilya kahit ilang dekada pa man ang hintayin ko maayos ko lang ang academic life ko. Kaya sana kung ano mang plan of action meron tayo dyan, kung meron man, uhmmmm...bahala na Kayo. You know better. Di ko lang talaga ma-figure out pa kung dapat ba kong maging masaya sa nangyari or what??! I'm confused. Basta, please, don't give me this feeling. a heart is such a delicate thing..kayang i-take ng utak ko ang mga rejections sa lahat na, wag na lang yung heart.masyado nang maraming band-aids at scars yan, give it a break. Amen.

*Pam..we'll see better days. promise yan.

burnout

we all need a break in this life. everyday is a battle and the earth has been a witness for too long of too much sorrow. don't let me upset gaea anymore..she's had enough, and so do i. at the moment. get a grip marye.

Today's Horoscope

"If there's something you want to do today make obtaining it your top priority."

and so, the stars have spoken. i must do what i ought to have done a day or so ago. Hayy.you can't blame me to simply "let go" or just be easy on everything right now because my previous weeks have been real jaded and i do, do think that i deserve to unwind even if not officially (since i'm still tied to all these responsibilities). So, really, just bear with me for now...

So Many Books...

According to the BookCrossing Top 100 Books of All Time I've read a total of 17 lang sa kanilang 100. hayyy again.

1. To Kill A Mockingbird- Harper Lee
2. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince- J.K. Rowling
3. The Lord of the Rings Trilogy- JRR Tolkien
4. Memoirs of a Geisha-Arthur Golden
5. The Stand- Stephen King
6. The DaVinci Code- Dan Brown
7. The Five People You Meet in Heaven- Mitch Albom
8. Angels & Demons- Dan Brown
9. The Catcher in the Rye- J.D. Salinger
10. 100 Years of Solitude- Gabriel Garcia Marquez
11. Neverwhere- Neil Gaiman
12. Little Women- Louisa May Alcott
13. The Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe- C.S. Lewis
14. Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone- J.K. Rowling
15. Lord of the Flies- William Golding
16. Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl- Anne Frank
17. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban- J.K. Rowling

sa Time Magazine's Complete List of 100 All-Time Novels naman:
1. Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret- Judy Blume
2. The Bridge of San Luis Rey- Thornton Wilder
3. The Catcher in the Rye- J.D. Salinger
4. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe- C.S. Lewis
5. Lord of the Flies- William Golding
6. The Lord of the Rings- JRR Tolkien
7. To Kill A Mockingbird- Harper Lee

Not even a Hundred??? oh crap!!!

I came upon this site from one of our faculty's suggestions. And so i thought of an idea and the result was not even remotely what i intended to begin with. how sad. By the way this is supposed to be the 1000 movies you have to watch before you die. i only watched 58 freaking films!!!

123. The Wizard of Oz (1939)
188. Beauty and the Beast (1946)
272. Animal Farm (1954)
313. The Ten Commandments (1956)
388. To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
419. My Fair Lady (1964)
437. The Sound of Music (1965)
527. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (1971)
600. Manila in the Claws of Brightness (1975) (in Filipino: Maynila: Sa Mga Kuko ng Liwanag)
605. Jaws (1975)
611. Taxi Driver (1976)
618. Close Encounters of the Third Kind (1977)
655. The Muppet Movie (1979)
680. E.T. The Extra-Terestrial (1982)
685. Tootsie (1982)
711. The Terminator (1984)
715. Beverly Hills Cop (1984)
716. Ghostbusters (1984)
721. The Breakfast Club (1985)
727. Back to the Future (1985)
744. Aliens (1986)
763. Good Morning, Vietnam (1987)
783. The Naked Gun (1988)
784. Big (1988)
808. Say Anything (1989)
822. Edward Scissorhands (1990)
835. Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
855. Farewell My Concubine (1993)
859. Philadelphia (1993)
860. Jurassic Park (1993)
865. The Piano (1993)
870. Forrest Gump (1994)
873. The Lion King (1994)
888.Babe (1995)
889. Toy Story (1995)
893. Clueless (1995)
896. Seven (1995)
907. Independence Day (1996)
914. Scream (1996)
917. Happy Together (1997)
929. Titanic (1997)
932. Saving Private Ryan (1998)
942.Ring (1998)
943. There's Something About Mary (1998)
946. The Blair Witch Project (1999)
954. Fight Club (1999)
959.The Sixth Sense (1999)
960. The Matrix (1999)
965. The Gladiator (2000)
970. Meet the Parents (2000)
972. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (2000)
982. Spirited Away (2001)
986. Moulin Rouge (2001)
987. Monsson Wedding (2001)
991. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
992. A.I.: Artifical Inteligence (2001)
996. City of God (2002)
1000. Chicago (2002)

*grabe not even the mainstream films i wasn't even able to see pa pala such as When Harry Met Sally, Pretty Woman, The Godfather series, Schindler's List (I read the book though), American Beauty, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Adaptation, etc... napaka-loser. andami ko pang kailangang mapanood bago makapangalahati. But alas, it stopped in 1992 e andami pang mga magagandang films na lumabas after that.. hmm..

FULLY BOOKED IS LOVE...or not

Since nung madiscover namin to nila Honey at Che-Che sa newly-built-for-richy/feeling-rich-people-of-Quezon-City(and adjacent places) na The Block (SM North Edsa), ay hindi na ko naka-get-over. tama bang parang ganun ang maging reaction. although this is the first "fully booked" chain that i've been, wala na, panalo na talaga. iba pa rin ang feeling na nakukuha ko when i'm around books, much different when you're around with your crush. medyo nakakahilo at masakit sa heart na realization once na na-overcome na ang amazement. ang ganda kasi ng pagkakaayos e san ka pa! alphabetically arranged ang mga fiction and non-fiction books. mas maganda kesa powerbooks ng shang-ri la! Nga lang syempre, it costs a lot..especially for me na Booksale items person na eversince.

Kaya lang, since may nadiskubre na nga ang mga katulad kong bookies na bagong haven, meron namang bagong kalaban ang management ng bookstore na yun ngayon. e di kami! tayo! nung 2nd time na bumalik ako dun (after a grueling 109 exam) medyo nakatatlong oras kami ni kimi dun! Okay pa ang lahat. konti lang din naman kasi ang tao, pumwesto lang kami sa may carpet along almost every children's books, fairytales, etc..Basa basa ng comics series tulad ng Baby Blues (tawa lang kami ng tawa), Garfield, Dr. Seuss, tsaka yung pambatang novel ni Neil Gaiman. after nun e umalis kami pero bumalik din naman para magbasa ulit (hanlameg kasi naman!) at ayun na. sabi ni Kimi tinititigan na daw kami ng mga staff dun at pabalik-balik na kaming iniikutan. haha! kahit nahihiya ako di ko tinitingnan yung mga mama. Yaan mo nang si kimimay na lang ang makipagtinginan din sa kanila dahil wala namang pakialam yun at di mahihiya yun. :)

all in all, nakapag-stay pa kami ng another two hours dun kahit na ansama na nga ng mga tingin nila samin. bonus pa dahil nakakita din kami ng mga fellow UP studes na ikot din ng ikot. bunch of guys who are obnoxiously loud (kung di ko lang kilala yung isa dun talagang maaasar ka sa kanila) pero wag ka, nagkasundo kaming lima na masyado ngang masama na ang tingin ng mga staff saming lahat pero keber.

oh well, medyo matagal na din yun. as of now di pa rin ako nakakabalik ulit. baka kasi mamya may warning notice na sa labas ng store na bawal na kong papasukin in the future! haha. hello?? pangalawang araw pa lang yun. humanda sila sa mga susunod (kung meron man). buti ang NBS katips kahit bulok na mga upuan hindi nila ipinagkakait ang public reading.

sa wakas nabuhay ang blogspot

dahil sa hindi ma-access ang blogger sa dept nung monday dito nyo na lang basahin muna ang aking piece of mind that time. nwey, it's not much. but id have a lot to tell, nga lang.BUSY. uber!

the rain has stopped, the storm has passed..

and now look at what it's done to our already disaster laden country. Filipinos do not need any more tragedies such as Milenyo but maybe Someone's got something else on His mind when He permitted this to happen. All i can hope in vain is it better be good and it better show on people's attitudes on coming days.

I know what happened to Metro Manila, Cavite, Paranaque, Laguna, Albay, Naga, Daraga and everywhere else was terrible..pero wala nang mas terible pa sa dinanas ng aming pinakamamahal na probinsya: Sorsogon. Sana bumaha ang tulong. I can only imagine the total darkness in weeks to come. Nahihirapan silang ibalik ang kuryente dahil na rin sa lala ng sitwasyon. AHHHH..

the miles (or kilometres) you have to run for friendship

Since this happened last night (and i was still inspired to write then), i'll have to copy from my journal to retell (tama ba?) forthnight events. haha. so kumusta naman sa kadramahan?

september 21, 2006, 2:20 am
tonight was another round of usual "up there" moments. Although everyone knows that i don't drink i am an ever present member. Tonight's drama was one of a kind. I realized though that:

*being sane or the only alcohol-free person can be tiring too (para kang may mga anak na saksakan ng kukulit at the same time nag-iiyakan pa!haha). But if you are with your friends, it's somewhat rewarding in the sense that it is the only service you can do for them for bringing you there in the first place. And yes, being alcohol-free has a great compensation too!!!) :)

*honestly, ----'s revelation wasn't that shocking nor even new to me anymore. probably it's because of the fact na bago pa man ang lahat na ito, tinanggap ko na sa sarili ko ang possibility na maging sila ni crush in the future. Sobrang nakatulong yun at proud naman ako sa sarili k na malinawa na yun sakin. nad that's that. Although may booze na involved at that time, pero c'mon, di naman ako engot para balewalain yung comment na yun. Subconsciously, matagal na din nyang naiisip din siguro yun, di lang nya masabi sakin ng normal sya. Pero ayos lang naman talaga. :)

*sometimes, there are people whose beliefs you can disregard for a day (or short time only). Who knows we might have been interfering an age-old belief of theirs, whether for good or for bad. But we have to take into consideration that we can't rush somebody into anything that we want them to believe. It'll take time of course, and hope in vain that they'll realize it soon before its too late.

*true friends will embrace you for everything that you are no matter how much you fall short, whatever you lack and even if you're too full of yourself. We might not see the need of proclaiming our undying loyalty to our friends regularly but it helps from time to time to tell them, to let them know (or feel) how much we appreciate them, how good (or bad!) we've become because of them and how grateful we are knowing that a loving and steady arms will catch or break our every fall. In this world of superficiality, your friends don't want to hear of grand or elaborate stuff to make them feel good...sometimes, the "little things" matter much more than just our great intentions.



so para sa iyo, na inspirasyon ng lahat na ito, ituloy mo lang yan. at least mas matutuwa kami kung may makikita kaming pagbabago sa'yo. be consistent kahit gradual, sabi ko nga sayo sa text. hindi mo ikamamatay kung aminin mo sa sarili mo na all this time, you really care for us. :)

snatched from klara's lj

A is for age:
22 (yay!)

B is for beer of choice:
what beer? kj ako e.i don't drink.

C is for career right now:
if you could call being a student for nth years a career...

D is for your dog's name:
don't haf one

E is for essential item you use everyday:
uhmm..shampoo? haha

F is for favorite tv show at the moment:
walang kamatayang One Tree Hill

G is for favorite game:
Sudoku (para masaya!)

H is for Home town:
mahirap sagutin..wala kong permanenteng address..parang hangin lang..everywhere

I is for instruments you play:
wish ko lang meron..

J is for favorite juice:
watermelon!

K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
the lazy b*tch

L is for last place you ate:
sa ano..forgot the name..yung resto sa philcoa na never nagtatagal..haha.

M is for marriage:
what marriage? ni boylet nga...

N is for your full name:
Sarah Mariela May Ortega Panganiban (gosh..pinahirapan ako ng mga elders)

O is for overnight hospital stays:
wala pa naman at never kong ninais..no way!

P is for people you were with today:
juraine, kimi, pam, van..up there peeps

Q is for quote:
eto fresh from il mare movie na pinanood namin kagabi sa UPFI
"there are only 3 things that you can't hide in this world: coughing, poverty and love". But Pam beg to disagree..onga naman..madami pang mga bagay na hindi mo pedeng itago like...secrets, cellulite, fats..hahahaha.

R is for Biggest Regret:
na hindi ko kinuha ang course na talagang gusto ko nung nag-UPCAT ako (but i won't be here kung di rin naman dahil dun!)
madami! ay sus..pero wala na yun..

S is for special talent:
uhmm..kumain???haha.

T is for time you woke up today:
around 5 am..tas tulog uli..tas 8 am..tulog uli..finally bumangon ako ng 11. (hey it's a wednesday!)

V is for vegetable you love:
green papaya, kangkong, ampalaya.lahat naman nakakain ko.yesss!

W is for worst habit:
hmm..mag-cram?hehe

X is for x-rays you've had:
2 ata..nung pumasok akong UP.nyahaha

Y is for yummy food you ate today:
fruit salad na walang condensed milk.

Z is for zodic sign:
taurus

the evolution of ron, harry and hermione

Last weekend I got the chance to reread Harry Potter books again (after my dreadful exams twas my relaxation moment..sorta). And as always, they (characters) never disappoint. i am still enthralled, amazed and touched everytime i finished reading these books.even after reading them a few more times i bet i will never, ever get tired of reading them over and over again. I so LOVE them. I am still a Harry Potter fanatic at heart despite everything. :)

LOOKIT THEM!

look at 'em. they were so young then (of course they were!)



and then the second installment came out..


..and this was way, way an improvement for their looks. at least they looked like any ordinary growing up kids with just the right stuff,


..and the latest.

Can't wait for the Book (sadly the last too) 7. I can't wait for lucky 07-07-07 next year. yey! kahit na mamaga na mata ko sa pagbabasa sa ebook makabasa lang i'm all down for you glorious seh-ven!

Syempre there's also the fifth movie installation, the Order of the Phoenix. Can't wait to see Sirius again, Luna Lovegood (who really looks like Loony!!!) and Dolores Umbridge (that *%@#&!)

Lesson Number 1 (daw)

Huwag Mag-invest masyado ng Emotional Feelings.
hinay-hinay daw muna, baka kasi pag nadapa, uber sa pagkalugmok ang mangyari. alam mo namang hindi ka nag-iisa at mas close sila". haha you got me there. so fine, Watch Out Me!!!

hindi naman araw-araw na makakadaupang-palad natin ang mga crush natin. Kaya pag nagkaroon ng chance, kahit gaano kaliit (at gaano kababaw ang scheme), patusin mo na. Sayang ng moments..ng what might have beens, what ifs and kilig moments (with matching untog moments pa pero medyo kaengotan na yun!).

so, sinasabi ko lang, na bihira ang ganitong pagkakataon. kung ang tulay na lupa ay huling lumabas 10,000 years ago (nga ba??), may pag-asa na muli pa itong lumabas sa susunod na 10,000 years uli. ang catch? hindi ko rin alam! ....ahhh, naalala ko na. kapag nakita mo ang tulay na lupa, GO na! minsan lang darating yun sa mahabang panahon.shortcut sa isang bagong mundo katulad ng ginawa ng mga ninuno natin..:)

the one they've been waitng for (and maybe, subconsciously, me too.)

i do admit it now. after being inspiration-less and crush-less for the longest time (if you could consider my fanaticism for Ping Medina as one, then so be it) i am now once again a normal human being. It's quite hard to fit in in this world especially when other people's definition of normal and abnormal dwells on the number of people you have and DON'T have in your life. I guess it's one of the most frustrating feelings in the world to be asked and be prodded about: the "important" people in your life. If you tell them that family and friends are the important people (note: i don't have the same answer as theirs!), they won't be satisfied and will ask you again about the "more" important ones. E sa wala nga e.Ano bang problema dun? You know well what i'm actually driving at. ayoko lang talaga banggitin yung phrase na yun.

Nwey, that's that. the bigger news of my boring, monotonous but chaotic life. and so i guess, i'm gonna be one paranoid and giggling girl again. so much for inspiration and being sane.

hayun lang :)

Hell Hath No Fury

never in my acadademic life (kahit na minsan ay towards mediocrity na ang performances ko) na umiyak ako dahil sa isang teacher. por dios y por santo. bakit ba hindi na lang nya sabihin ng harap-harapan samin na hindi pa sya nakagawa ng exam, hence, the reason for our super-delayed exam. hindi sa nagpapakatalino ko kaya atat na kong mag-exam..ayoko lang kasi na magkasabay sila ng exam ko sa math to think na pareho silang mahirap. pero wala, nagwagi pa rin ang evil sa mundong ito. after ng matagal na rebyuhan, matinong usapan (though sya hindi), nagwagi pa rin sya. fine. kung pwede lang i-drop tong subject na 'to pero hindi e.kahit na anong gawin ko e magkikita pa rin kami't magkikita.peste talaga. wala syang karapatan to make a living hell out of our college existence. sya ba nag-papaaral sakin? sya ba ang magbabayad ng tuition fee ko next sem in case na bumagsak ako?hindi naman e. kaya hindi sya masaya e.kaya maraming galit sa kanya e.sobrang nakakainis talaga.napahiya man ako sa klase ngayong araw pero alam kong not in vain. for the first time din ay nagrebelde ko sa prof sa pamamagitan ng hindi pagsagot. kung alam lang nyang nakaka-depress ang pinaggagagawa nya at hindi mababago ng pakiki-chummy nya sa mga estudyante nya especially to boys when he's a guy in the first place ang pagtingin namin sa kanya. pakshet talaga.

**
so parang ganun ang nagiging trend ng buhay ko ngayong week.medyo iyakan blues lang. wala lang.at least ang dahilan ng pag-iyak ko nung sabarday ay dahil naman sa tuwa. i felt so 'loved' and thankful to God that day na kahit kala ko e wala nang makakatulong sakin (on such a short notice) e nagprovide sya. yun ay isa sa mga moment na di mo na lang mapigilan na umiyak kahit di ka naman talaga naiiyak pero nung nasimulan mo na e antagal bago ka nahimasmasan. So anyway, i was saved by the bell. and the bell this time was popsie.

these days too many people are falling in love. too many tears have been shed and i suppose there's more buckets to come. Pinch, pinch. No, I'm not one of them. And that is too unfortunate.

One Long Weekend

Tatlong araw ding medyo nag-isa ko sa 'bahay' namin. Some friends ay umakyat ng Batad. Kainggit nga kaya lang ay meron akong Stat 101 exam na hindi ko pwedeng ipagpaliban and besides, haf no money. So no money, will not travel. Ang buhay nga talaga. So, sabihin na lang nating friday night ay nag-aaral ako, Saturday morning ay ngarag na ngarag ako pagkatapos ng exam kaya natulog na lang ako pagdating ko ng bahay. Paggising ko e madami naman akong ginawa. Nag-transcribe ng onti, nagbasa. Nag-isip. Nagbasa ng mga txt messages. Transcribe uli ng onti, nakatapos magbasa ng book at nagsimula na naman muli ng panibago (na natapos ko ding basahin agad in 3 hours). Ayun. Pretty much like that. Wala pa kong load. Actually nagdadalawang-isip pa ko magload talaga (wala na ngang pera di ba?) kaya lang ayun malungkot walang kausap at tsaka may taong nagce-celebrate ng birthday nya nung Monday na hindi ko pa nababati. And I guess, hindi naman ako nagsisi na naglabas ako ng 25 pesos (note to self: 2 araw na lakaran ang kapalit nito!). Nabati ko yung friend ko na yun (na medyo nagdrama pa whatsoever kasi kala nya nakalimutan ko daw birthday nya.ako pa. haha!) at may mga kakulitan din ako nung gabing yun. Salamat sa Globe Unlimitxt (o libre plugging na 'to ah!), some people made that day bearable.

Dahil sa kanila e medyo namiss ko ang Dramachine Babies. Nauna na si Izay na medyo napraning sa isang forwarded message ko (na sinesend to many ko naman talaga so no pun intended talaga!). Nasabi ko na lang ay..."O nga no? Sensya na, di ko naisip yun actually". Anyway, erase erase na lang. Ahh, izay. :)

Sumunod si Che-Che na nagtext ng:
"Hi guys, wala ln, narinig k na naman cruisin' kya namis k na naman kau.Sensya d kc k naging fri last friday e.Sana we cud rili mit up soon.My kulang kc tlga.Huhu

Yep, ganyan si che. Kahit di kami nagtetext at nagkikita ng madalas e di naman kami nagkakalimutan (same as Ate, Izay, Hunny, Jog, Ran and Rocky). Napa-ahww na lang ako e.Tsktsk.

At eto ang pinakamalupit. Hindi ko 'to inaasahan kaya siguro ganun. Sa inyo na nakakakilala kay Popsie, more or less ay alam natin kung ano liko ng utak nun di ba? Pero sobrang "nahipo" talaga ko ng aming conversation.

Una e nagpadala sya nito:

Would you love someone who completes you?

Or a person who loves u completely?

"You Are Thwe One"..

Opens August 30 in theaters near you..

Hehe..

E nagkataong 'medyo' gusto ko syang panoorin sa simpleng kadahilanang matagal na kong di kinikilig at gusto ko talagang magpaka-jologs kaya nagreply ako ng something like this:

"Talaga?Gusto ko pa nmn yan actually!Libre mo ko?haha!"

Na sinagot nya ng:

"Tangina marye! Lupit mo! Namis 2loi kita!"

Sorry pero ang unang reaksyon ko syempre e natuwa.Pero nung binasa ko uli, medyo kinabahan ako kasi baka hindi pala totoo yun..tipong kinda sarcastic pala yun. Kaya nagtanong ako ng"

"Compliment ba yun?Dapat ko bang ikatuwa yun?"

Eto ang reply nya:

"Uo! Mis na kitang lukaret ka!"

Ahhww..At isang kulitan na lang ang sumunod.

Wala lang. Mababaw lang talaga ko, when you least expect it, people makes me happy in their simplest way without them ever knowing that they just did. Ganun talaga e.

By the way, misyamisya guys!Kung pwede lang na sa isang pitik ng kamay ay magawa kong nasa sunken garden tayong lahat at tamang nagkukulitan lang, ginawa ko na. haha! pero dahil di pwede, i hope to see you all at the same time, SOON.

The Wheel Is Turning

The guy who doesn't like you before decides you're quite interesting and the guy you used to like (who actually came to like you but then that time you didn't like him anymore) who has now found his inner peace is making you mad for some weird reason. Or is it really the deal? It's probably a rare case of "i'll never get over you gettin over me" thing. Shoot. Bullseye. If that is the case, then I am one selfish human. So screw me! I must be stoned to death for behaving such an ass lately. Tsktsk. It's fate knocking and kicking my freakin' shitty pride. Fine. So you won. What does it matter anyway? I'm still grumpy, lonely and alone. And my sulking in a dark corner won't change anything. My frog won't come out behind the curtain even if i declare war with gods of the world. And I hate that guy who frigginly denies to have ever known me and completely ignores me (when he used to tell me he would be everything i want him to be because I was everything he never knew he wanted). YEAH RIGHT. Boy, am I glad I never really believed in those stuff anyway (man it was way, way too freaky back then!). For me, he was just a kid. And i knew I have been very kind to him as far as i know. Never even mentioned how the whole thing freaked me out to friends we both know. I never, ever, made him uncomfortable. If there's gonna be one who'd be very uncomfortable, it has to be me. But I didn't. I took everything just fine. So why now, are the ghosts turning up against me?

Film Marathon na ito: Mabuhay ang Pelikulang Pilipino! (Mabuhay!)

Dahil mahal ko si Ping, syempre, gumawa ko ng paraan para mapanood lang 'tong pelikulang 'to.Buti na lang at libre lang sya sa Cine Adarna Videotheque. My first time to watch there. At hindi naman ako nagsisisi sa pagkakapanood ko nito. Hanggaleng. Ang simple lang ng istorya na umikot sa kanilang anim. Pare-parehong naghahanap ng trabaho sa iba't ibang kadahilanan. Would you believe na isang Muslim ang pinortray ni Pinggoy dito?Kahit ako nagulat.Ang galing! Kahlil is LOVE.

Mga paborito kong linya ni Kahlil:

(scene where Sarah, her love one, left him): "Kumakain ng chicharon kuya mo! Kumakain ng chicharon kuya mo!" (laugh trip to the max talaga yun!)

(scene where kahlil was forced to eat bagnet); "Masarap po sya, crunchy." Sabay luwa.

Pero all in all, maganda yung film. Ito ang masakit na katotohanan sa lipunan natin. Nagpapakahirap kang umusad pataas para makuha ang minimithi mong trabaho, para lang ibigay sa anak ng padrino ng nag-iinterview, kalokohan!! Nakakainis, pero tamang reyalidad lang. Isa pa. Sa isang di mawaring kadahilanan ay nagsenti mode ako dahil sa ending song ng Trabaho, ahhhh. Medyo nagkaroon kasi ko ng phase sa "Ikot" ng Stonefree (kamusta naman ang cameo ni Miro at publicity ng banda sa background!hehe). Ayun. Ganda kasi talaga ng kantang yun. Sabayan pa ni Ping na nagja-jog sa Acad Oval (definitely a carless oval day). ahhhh.Bakit di nyo sinabi?!! Sabagay.Baka makailang take kayo dahil sa mga taong mamimyesta kay Ping. haha.

Pinaghirapan ng maraming tao 'to. Mapa cast, crew, publicity, etc. At syempre, naghirap din ang organisasyon namin para lang makatulong sa pagbebenta ng tickets nito. Worth it naman sya panoorin e.Natuwa talaga kami, coming from a point of view of a Sorsoganon, yung accent ni Daniel (Sid Lucero), grabe ang freaky, para talaga syang tagadun. Pero yung ibang character medyo exag, parang dating bisaya na. Watching Donsol made us miss our province so much. Parang andun lang sa harap namin.Ang mga kalsad, tao, tindahan. Hayy.Although medyo mababaw sya, dahil love story sya, gusto ko talaga yung parallelism na pinapakita ng butanding sa mga tao. Ang mga butanding, they come and go. Sure na dadating sila sa mga tubig ng Donsol, pero sure din na aalis sila one day. Katulad sa mga tao. Bumabalik sila sa isang lugar, alaala o tao man upang umalis ding muli isang araw. At like ko na si Sid Lucero after ko mapanood (ng 2 beses!) ang Donsol. Too bad hindi sya nakarating sa showing sa UPFI. Si Liss Angel, Simon Ibarra at Direk lang ang nameet namin. Oh well.

Again, because of Ping. Tsaka The Dawn na rin syempre. They're some kinda an institution when it comes to music world. Okey lang. Nothing so grand (except the musical scores hehe). Kahit si Ping ay creepiness dito (as one portraying the late Teddy Diaz). Si Francis Brew, er Reyes ang total laugh trip dito ant ang bandang Ratbunitata. More like goons kaya sila. katakot.Si Buddy ang kyut-kyut. Si JunBoy ay magaling umarte in fairness. Si Jett. Ayos lang. Musta naman sa hair? Si Caloy Balcells (yung original member na may cameo sa film) ay napakagwapo. Kahit antanda nya na, grabe!Ayun, just look at the painting of Teddy and you'll see why they took Ping to play in this role. Galen-galeng talaga nun. Tomorrow, The Dawn will be watching at the UPFI too. :)

grasp this

Sometimes we are in love in the idea of falling in love. Loving the illusion of having or missing someone. It's alright to feel happy through other people, but don't get dependent on achieving happiness by being with someone.Love yourself first before sharing your life with somebody because if you don't, you will always look for people that you think can make you complete. And in the end, it will make you lose yourself more, bit by bit, piece by piece.

Amen to that, Rocky.

Tara lets!

Cinemalaya @ UP

Aug 7 Mon 2 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Winners: Orasyon; Kwarto; Parang Pelikula; Putot

Aug 7 Mon 5 p.m.
Rotonda

Aug 7 Mon 7 p.m.
Mudraks

Aug 7 Mon 9 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Program I: Orasyon; Parang Pelikula; Putot; Puwang; Sa Silaw

Aug 8 Tue 2 p.m.
Batad

Aug 8 Tue 5 p.m.
Tulad ng Dati

Aug 8 Tue 7 p.m.
In Da Red Korner

Aug 8 Tue 9 p.m.
Donsol

Aug 9 Wed 2 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Program II: 10:25 ng Gabi; Gee-Gee at Waterina; Kwarto; Labada; No Passport Needed

Aug 9 Wed 5 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Winners: Orasyon; Kwarto; Parang Pelikula; Putot

Aug 9 Wed 7 p.m.
Donsol

Aug 9 Wed 9 p.m.
Rotonda

Aug 10 Thu 2 p.m.
Saan Nagtatago si Happiness

Aug 10 Thu 5 p.m. Ang Huling Araw ng Linggo

Aug 10 Thu 7 p.m.
Batad

Aug 10 Thu 9 p.m.
Tulad ng Dati

Naka-highlight ang Donsol dahil syempre, nasa Sorsogon yun!Kailangang suportahan tsaka manood kayo para makita nyo ang landscape.Naks At yung Tulad ng Dati dahil andun si Ping (as the late teddy Diaz) at syemps, The Dawn yun eh!

At sana sagarin na nila ang bonus, sana libre na lang to sa UPFI. Pleaseeeee????!!!!!

of first times, brat-but-adorable kids and total nosebleed

"I wanna die now".
---"If you die here I'll just leave you in there and your dying wouldn't look really regal".

" I don't wanna walk anymore."
---Kids.

"I don't want to do this again next year!"
---(as we bid everyone our goodbyes and thank you's Fac Hardy said "so, will we see you next year?" and the answer was a chorus of "YESSSS". I love these kids.Really.

"I would give everything just to have a motor bike in here!"
---And me answering with a gleeful look, "You mean everything?"

"Ate, you blow your whistle na, that's my favorite part.
---(thank you kiddo!)

Those were just a few among the many lines I heard on my first ever Lakbay trip as an OJT. Subject: Grade 5, St. Paul College Pasig students. Status: strictly English only (because there were also Korean students in the class). Result: Total nosebleed. Why am I, in the first place even there? Well, a change of heart. I was so happy because I thought I was in good company of TL Oca in Bus 1 but he changed the positions at the last minute.Ha! My karma. Juraine's karma was quite bad but in a very good way. Imagine that. The facilitators (facs) assigned in our bus were really having a hard time interpreting history in English. Makes sense to me but what does not is one fac who is SO lazy he didn't do anything much. Blech.

But despite uber hyper kids and spoiled and bratty kids, I really enjoyed this this trip. Okay, so I must have fumed too many times that day but that's only because my facilitators are really not that efficient. Arrgghh. But the kids made up my facs' lost cause. So many questions, a LOT of English, too many camera flashes, too much addiction in High School Musical. But they are really sweet kids. And for me, they made the whole trip bearable and fun.But the best part? The applause I got before we said goodbye to each other. I'll probably sound so conceited but I was real proud of that moment. Let's just say that the applause I got was way greater than my facs on board. haha!

" Kapag na-in-love sya sakin, pipilitin ko talagang ma-in-love rin sa kanya".
---the best quote of the day! (happened after the trip, while AJ and I was sorta relaxing). Haha!

kailangan na kasing magbawas

mga samu't saring laman ng mms saved items ko. yung iba naisip ko lang, yung iba chanced upon, yung iba yung ayaw kong makalimutan at karamihan ay mga nagandahan ako kaya kinopya ko na lang. :)

*the person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. - 11 minutes, Paulo Coelho (i'm not really into Mr. Paulo Coelho but i really liked this sentence or whatever.ummpp.see i don't even know what it's called!)

*"Being Christian is not the result of an ethical choice or a lofty idea, but the encounter with an event, a person, which gives life a new horizon and a decisive direction". Pope BenedictXVI (nagustuhan ko sya kahit na madaming tao ang kilala ko na natatakot sa kanya. oh well.)

* "He's the gooey, sticky stuff that holds us together". - Diego on Sid (I love toughy Diego. even though he is so annoying or really gets bossy sometimes. But there's really a mellow side of him. And i especially loved him when he said this to sid, which i also love!)

* It gladdens me to know that people text me from wherever they are just to let me know that Ping is appearing in this or that show.- upon June, Ela, and Anna's texts (Me being a Ping addict must have shown a lot!)

*" I wish I knew how to quit you". - Jack Twist, Brokeback Mountain (syempre, sino ang hindi makakakilala kay papa jake ng sinabi nya ang kanyang famous line! ang naisagot ko na lang ay, "then quit him for cripe's sake!". or another line that is something like that pa rin haha!)

* "We in Illyria do not discriminate by gender!" - coach, She's the Man (I love Amanda Bynes. eversince All That days ay like ko na talaga sya. And this movie was really good despite what other people say about it Basta, kakaibang twist at syempre ang classic Amanda humor ay kitang-kita)

*-Krafty by New order
-Only by Nine Inch Nails
-You're All I Have- Snow Patrol
-High and Dry version of Jamie Cullum
-Girl Next Door by Saving Jane
-Learning the Hard Way by the Gin Blossoms
-My Friend's Over You by Newfound Glory
-The Adventures by Angels and Airwaves
-Hundred by The Fray

Yung 1-7 songs e mga kanta lang yun na narinig ko sa radyo at ayaw ko lang makalimutan muna kaya nililista ko. Yung last two ay mga kantang pinakinggan ko sa Tower Records uli ng libre (syempre pa!) at tracks na nagustuhan ko.

kamusta na? andyan ka pa ba...

matagal din akong nawala sa blog world. busy-busyhan.nagpapaka-busy.feeling busy.minsan, over busy. saan ikamo? sa pag-iisip,paghahanap-buhay, paghahanap ng iba-t ibang raket, pag-aanalyze ng mga nangyayari sa lablayp ng ibang tao, pangangalap ng tsismis (hehe), pagta-transcribe, pagsali sa mga contest, manalangin na manalo sa contest at medyo konting akademik life. balanseng-balanse di ba! yun.konti lang naman kung tutuusin pero halos sumakit na ulo ko sa pag-iisip gabi-gabi kung ano ba talagang gagawin ko sa buhay ko. alam ko ang gusto kong gawin, pero kung pano, yun ang malaking tanong. pero habang nandito pa naman ako, salamat ng marami na rin sa mga taong nasa likod ng lahat ng ito. you know who you are.

basta. masaya pa rin naman ako kahit papaano at nakakakita pa ko ng dahilan para sa mga susunod na araw. hala.

currently loving

the fray.

Astig sya! Melancholic/rocking tunes.

Magaleng talaga. Now I know why people in the States

are having 'the fray' syndromes.

Trivia:

Sa tower records ko lang pinakinggan yung buong CD nila. haha. Katulad ng pakikinig ko kay Jack Johnson, High School Musical Soundtrack at marami pang iba, Sorry pero thank you ng madame!

craving for...

RITZ cheese sandwich crackers.

Aaahhhh.. para kong buntis na napapanaginipan

na ang pagkain sa kanya. kaines. mahal kasi e. hmmpp.

17

magic.
poverty.
last money ko.
Ano na ba?
Kakaiyak naman.
Grabe! napapanaginipan ko na gabi-gabi yung mangyayari sa susunod na araw.
Aarrgghh.
...kaya...
kakayanin.

Some pix from above (ultra-mega late)

Barrio fiesta "peeps" uli. Kutuhan blues naman with Igorots (with Kimi)

Baguio Cathedral on the Background

the great oble in UP Baguio (with flowers pa kamo!)

Strawberry fields are forever (pero lettuce actually yung background!)

eto isa sa paborito kong pichur sa mga barrio fiesta "almost people"

ang researchers at ang saling pusa

"don't replace your old friends with trash"

*Sensitivity, not innocence, is the key. So quit on being a wide-eyed kid and start feeling for others and for yourself too. 'Open Your Eyes', as what Penelope keeps on saying to Tom in Vanilla Sky, and you'll see what you've been missing and what you've always been ignoring.

* Hindi ako marunong magalit at hindi rin ako nagtatanim ng sama ng loob sa mga taong may ibang iniisip tungkol sakin. Nagulat lang siguro ko sa nalaman ko at, sa totoo lang, hindi ko naintindihan at maintindihan kung bakit naisip "niya'/'nila' sakin yun. kung kilala mo talaga ko, ang mga 'gusto' ko, siguro hindi mo iisipin yung mga bagay na yun. Siguro nga nalungkot talaga ko, syempre dahil pagkatapos nitong lahat ng panahon, kaibigan kitang maituturing.

the break that you've been waiting for and tales of a beautiful Saturday

Outbound Educators. Will travel. Will be paid...at least until i get accredited first. Although I accepted this idea because of the promised travels and the money I'll get to receive (at least when the right time comes), right now an all new purpose surfaced. Maybe some priorities need to be set first before diving in and sometimes, this realizations come in way, way too late. But there's nothing worth regretting for what I've put myself into. I knew I'll gain something from this experience, besides the financial gain of course. There's more to that, really. Guess I'm on my way to conquering the darn stage fright. Ha! Wait around 2 months more and we'll see where this teaching-while-traveling will get me.

Since my day started very early (for a weekend day), i was surprised to find out that every place Juraine and I have gone to was still a total blast, if not for our aching feet and stomachs, nevertheless, it was a day full of surprises and first times again (for me!). I had my first rappeling experience at the Lakbay Kalikasan office and I have to say that even if I sucked most of the time, I really did enjoy the descend from a 25 feet tall building. Mababa lang talaga actually. It was my first time at Robinson's Pioneer, although I didn't see much aside from Garfield who was having a fan's day that time, it was still pretty OK for a 30-minute stay where-you-didn't-get-to-see-much-of-what-there's-to-see-if-there's-any. For the second time, i experienced another Powerbooks warehouse sale (i was convinced by juraine, haha!) and seeing so much books again made my head dizzy calculating how much time I've got to spend on each (of course, I'll be just borrowing this time). It was a tiring day alright, but one that was spent wisely and purposely.

By the way, the third was Max's. :)

Haaayyy Ping...

First day graces and mishaps

Due to the heavy traffic going on, I wasn't able to attend my first class: stat 101. Oh well, so much for starting good. But it's alright now because this time I'm sure the slot is mine and only mine and I've got the ticket to present it to the instructor next meeting. haha. 2 graces and 2 mishaps concluded my day, but on to mishaps first. First, on my way going to the terrible math building, I saw an equally terrible thing happened. Somebody's hand is extending all the way to hell. Yikes. Natakot talaga ko. May nangnenenok ng bag ng may bag sa harap ko. I'm not sure if I was the only one aware but i do hope I wasn't the only one. Good thing wala naman siguro syang nakuha. I guess aware yung pinagkukuhanan nya and he's good for maintaining a poker face (like i did?!?!). So much fo security inside. Grabe talaga! Second, my teacher in Math 14 is someone (a Voltes V remainee) i already met along my unadventurous Math journey. OH NO! Yun na lang ang nasabi ko. Goodluck to me.

Sabi ko na. Kaya pala ko duda sa isang grace ko ngayon. Mabilis ko kasing nakuha, ika nga "No sweat". Nagprerog ako ng PanPil 19 kay Sir Ocampo at himalang tinanggap nya naman ako ng walang masyadong tanung-tanong. Kaya pala. Naalala ko tuloy yung sinabi ng tatay ni Robert langdon sa kanya sa Angel and Demons (not in its exact words really) "if you figured out something easily without much difficulty, something's wrong" or something like that. Basta yun ang idea. hay. Anyway, grace are grace you've got to embrace. Naks, ryhmed! Second grace: finally napanood ko na din ang Da Vinci Code (na uber sa boring!). Kimi's treat. Kung hindi mo nabasa ang libro, nyak, I won't be surprised if anybody else fell asleep while watching it. Madaming binago. Ayoko na ring mag-delve into it. Tama na ang mga pag-aanalyze namin ni kimimay. I say, the book was still the greatest version. Humor Time: Kimi overheard somebody beside her (looking yuppie and all) pronounced the Da Vinci as "Da Vinsi". All hands down. Amen.

Second Time Around

Yep. Another one again. This time, it's an anniversary sale, with much lower discounts on books. But powerbooks is still powerbooks. Go ahead, catch some books!

Happy Independence Day

* I really love my new site address or whatever the heck you call that thing and my blog's new look. Finally, after 10 years e natupad din ang pangarap kong magreformat. Happiness!!! :)

* Kasalukuyan akong nagbabakasyon dito kala Hunnybun, gamit ang kanilang Phillips flat PC (kailangang may ganun talagang factor.;) at electric fan. Masaya!

*Bukas ay pasukan na. Hay. What to expect? Trabaho, responsibilidad, puyat at sangkatutak na chismisan. sana this time, no more 5's please my Lord.

Nwey, natuwa lang ako dito kaya ninenok ko din say sa blog ng may blog. oh well. :)

four jobs you had in your life
1. SA sa dept namin
2. Transcriber (?? O kung anumang tawag sa kanila)
3. Researcher ng Indonesian Diaspora thesis ng someone high up there
4. errand girl (haha)

four movies you would watch over and over
1. While You Were Sleeping
2 The Little Mermaid
3. It Takes two
4. Do Re Mi

four places you have lived in
1. Sta. Ana, MM
2. Diliman, Quezon City
3. Sorsogon City, Sorsogon
4. Pasig

four TV Shows you love to watch
1. One Tree Hill (woohoo!)
2. Gilmore Girls
3. 7th Heaven (pa rin)
4. Late Night with Conan O’ Brien

four places you have been on vacation
1. Baguio (yey!)
2. Cagayan (Lallo and a bit of Aparri)
3. Zambales
4. Bulacan

four websites i visit daily
1. syempre blog ko
2. blog ng ibang tao
3. mails (yahoo and gmail)
4. peyups.com

four of my favorite foods (ang hirap nito kasi apat lang!)
1. prayd chicken
2. ice cream
3. spaghetti
4. kanin (..e wala, pinoy)

four places i would rather be right now
1. Peru
2. Anywhere na me beach!
3. sa isang grocery store!
4. Disneyland!!

four friends who i have tagged that i think will respond
1. Hannee
2. Ate Grace
3. Sarsi
4. Jillian

***The Peyups Test
1. ANO'NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
2000 - 75362

2. NAKAPASA KA BA OR WAITLISTED?
UPCAT passer!!!

3. PAANO MO NALAMAN ANG ENTRANCE EXAM RESULT?
Mula sa dyaryo at isang sulat na super duper late dumating.

4. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
BA. Linguistics

5. SECOND CHOICE?
Nakakahiya..wag na lang. pag naiisip ko kasi yun, naalala ko pag-kaambisyosa ko. Hehe

6. ANO COURSE MO NA NATAPOS OR BALAK TAPUSIN?
BS Geography. Tuloy na ‘to!

7. NAG-SHIFT KA BA O MAY PLANO?
Yep. Shiftee. E kasi naman…

8. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
Ngek.

9. NAKAPAG-DORM OR NAGDODORM KA BA?
Never did. Border 4 lyf! haha

10. NAKA UNO KA BA?
OO! Buti kamo naka-2 pa.

11. NAGKA-3?
Madaming beses.

12. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
Mabait na bata ako e. walang palya. Pero nung super senior na…hmmm...

13. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
Nung 1st, 3rd at 4th year ko meron (STFAP).

14. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
Di na mabilang tsong.

15. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG- CUM LAUDE?
Ngek. Ever.

16. KAILAN KA MAGTATAPOS?
Sana ngayong school year. Waaaaahhh

17. FAVE PROF/S:
Sir Naval (Soc Sci 2)
Dr. Barrameda (Urban Anthro)
Sir Sonny Ortega (naks..171 and 157!)
Dr. Nantes (thesis)
Sirl Alwin Aguirre (Humad 1)
Ma’am Genny (Geol 11)
Sir Aye (Geol 11.1 with matching blushing face!)

18. WORST PROF/S:
Si Aoux. Si ______ (baka kasi mahuli ako!)

19. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
Soc Sci 2
Humad 1
Geol 11
Urban Anthro
Geography of South America
Fieldwork (subject ba ‘to?)
Philippine Games na PE

20. WORST SUBJECT/S:
MATH.math.MATH.

21. FAVE BUILDING/S:
AS na ‘to syemps at Gonzales Bldg..

22. PABORITONG KAINAN:
Walang Kamatayang CASAA at Rodic’s

23. MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
6.50 na ngayon!!!

24. LAGI KA BA SA MAIN LIBRARY?
Ay sus. Laman ng lib.

25. NAGPUNTA KA BA SA INFIRMARY?
mga 3 beses. Nung una para sa physical exam, pangalawa dahil inatake ko ng allergy at pangatlo e nagpakonsulta sa isang malalang sakit. Hehe.

26. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
naman! Sinong hindi?!! hehe

27. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
Aikido
Bowling
Stretching
Philippine Games

28. KUMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
Masaya kami ng groupies ko. Kaka-OP kasi yung iba naming blockmates, sobrang girly! Haha. Pero naging close din kami. CASAA peeps nga e.

29. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG UP NAMING MAHAL?
Mga dalawang linya pa mamememorize ko na din sya.

30. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
wish ko lang.

31. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
yata. Kumusta naman kasi sa bonus points.

32. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
Hinde. High school unang tikim after that, never.

ETONG SURVEY AY NINAKAW KO kay Klara. Hehe.

....at bago nga pala magkalimutan, isang maligayang kalayaan sa iyo Pilipinas (or not..)

the art of dealing

When Hannee told me a few weeks earlier that " May, ang payat mo na!", i somehow thought that it really couldn't be that bad. But after hearing remarks such as "Dude, ang payat mo na!" and "Ate Marye, bakit ang payat mo na?", well, it must have been bad after all. But the greatest (or meanest) blow I dare not imagine would come from my Geography teacher. He asked me (with his unique singsong pronounciation of my name pa kamo) "Marye, bakit ang payat mo na? Nag-aadik ka ba?". Whoa. Kumusta naman yon di ba? I must have been going down the drain faster than I thought I'm supposed to be going. I made a mental note to weigh myself if I ever get the chance. The probabilities are quite strong that my usual 43 kgs have also declined.

Although I'm going through these things every friggin' day, sometimes, what one can do is to find the perks of such new found path in life (even if you insist there's none!). Come to think of it, a month ago, I probably would have died with the thought of having no meals in between, nowadays, I'm grateful enough to have a full lunch and dinner. I haven't drank any softdrinks (until 3 days ago when an orgmate bought me a sakto) for sometime now, eaten any junk foods (save from few occasions that friends are actually eating one) nor sweets (even a single chocnut I manage to avoid) and of course, the fast foods.The urges often do come, but like what Ate used to say, "it's just an urge!" Mababaw it may seem, but real. It's just a matter of fighting the temptations and having a tight budget.

But beyond all these "worldly desires" (nyak!), there are things that are far more important than just dreaming of the much-desired mcdo meal! My friends, if ever I made a promise to any one of you to not shed too much tears anymore (i forgot specifically to whom e), well, I am so sorry. haha! I cry not becasue i am always sad or in the verge of breaking down but simply because I'm just mighty happy for having been this far. My heart swells with all the kindness everybody's been giving me (naks, pero pwera biro). I guess in times like these, all we'll ever gonna need are some right people with all the right purpose. When Hannee took me out that one wonderful Sunday, sobrang masaya na talaga ko nun, pero syempre hindi papayag yun ng ganun lang. :) Si Pam, na pinagbabaon pa ko ng lunch (straight from Bulacan pa) after a draining day of numbers and formulas.Heartwarming di ba? When a friend’s father texted me from abroad telling me that “I’m like another daughter to him..”, pakshet, gusto kong ipanganak uli right there and then. For Ate Grace, whom I need not elaborate more for it’ll take too much space and time. Basta, I dedicate my Math 11 and fieldwork grades to you. Yung manong Ikot driver who willingly took my 4 pesos fare because I found out wala na pala kong pera. Ito siguro yung isa sa mga moments na di ko makakalimutan. Dahil na rin siguro sa hiya at tuwa di ko na napigilang umiyak. Kamusta uli! Si kimi. Ang kaibigan kong tatahi-tahimik at napaka-kuripot pero big hearted talaga inside. My constant ear lender kahit alam kong minsan nakakasawa na din. Life’s really full of surprises ika nga. Si izay, kahit na bihira pa kaming magkita. Parang Priory of Sion lang yan e, kahit di mo pa makita, the wheels are always in motion . Si Juraine, ang batang nagdala sakin sa Baguio. Kapag kasama mo si Juraine, never kang magugutom! Sa mga constant support ng iba ko pang mga kaibigan. Si Sarah, na sasagot daw ng future grad shoes ko, hehe, si Ela na karamay ko nung nireject kami that one gloomy Tuesday, kay Raymond, Ed, Len, June, Es, Tel, Rain, Popsie (kahit bihira tayong magkita at 2 beses mo na kong iniindyan!), Pol, blockmate Weng.

Parang gumagawa ko ng speech of thanks no? Or parang last testament (wala kasing will e).Hmm..creepy pala ito. But the bottom line is hindi ko nakakalimutan at makakalimutan lahat ng mga taong tumulong at tumutulong sa akin during these dark days. Maswerte pa rin ako even with less pounds off of me. Kahit na hindi ko na matutunang hindi umiyak tuwing naririnig ko ang Helena at Breakaway for some strange unknown reasons, okey lang talaga. Siguro nga bobo ko sa conversational English (kaya ko nireject haha!) at matatagalan pa kong maging lover ang sine ,cosine, tangent, exponential functions, derivatives at limits, pero one day soon it’s gonna happen to you..I mean, someday, somehow, I’ll also gonna see the light every proud graduates have seen in their time. Amen.

..a merry little birthday..

napansin ko, aside sa 2 international texter ko (ate and cheche) ay puro mga globe people ang bumati sakin. Hmmm. bakit kaya?dahil ba sa unlimitxt? 2 lang ang bumati sakin na Smart people. hehe. Nwey, nakakatuwa naman kasi may mga taong di ko ineexpect na babatiin ako pero bumati sila. Maraming Salamat sa nakaalala, sa lahat ng mga bumati sa lahat ng paraan. Pero si Lord, gumagawa ng paraan kahit papano. Kani-kanina lang ay nakita ko ang isang kaibigang matagal ko na ring di nakikita at yun, pinainom nya ko ng isang iced chocolate na medyo lalagnatin yata ko a presyo. hello!isang baso lang yun. parang gusto ko ngang sabihin a kanya kung pede bang i-convert ko na lang sa mcdo meals yun. well, pera naman nya yun e.hehe. sadyang ganun talaga ang buhay.

I just want to thank God that I'm still alive and i've surpassed some storms and still hanging on despite everything. I am thankful for all the people He made as an instrument of my survival (tama ba yun?!). :) basta, gusto ko lang sabihin na i wouldn't be here kung hindi dahil sa mga kaibigan kong walang sawang tumutulong sakin, and you know who you are dears! :) so, I guess, even without the cakes, the balloons and all that jazz, the best gift one could ever receive is the fact that I'm still here, flesh and all. And yeah, I am getting old for cripe's sake!

Happy Birthday to me!

maikli lang 'to

kahapon, nagsimula ang araw ko na umiiyak at muntik na sanang matapos din sa iyakan, buti na lang mabait talaga si Lord at di Nya ko nilunod sa luha. issues?tardiness! na-test na naman ang patience ko sa paghihintay. ayoko talaga kasi ng naleleyt at wish ko lang lahat ng tao ganun din sana. Oh well. pangalawa ay rejections. Hmmm.I really belive that 2 rejections in a day was too much for me. ganun talaga siguro ang buhay "out there in the wild". okey na ko ngayon unlike yesterday. i'm getting over all the failures in my life at sa mga darating pa.
Good si Lord kasi dahil sa lahat ng nangyari ay medyo nagbigay Sya ng reward. bottom line ay nakakain ako kahapon ng maayos. sobrang thankful ako dun!

Tomorrow is my big day. I wish to be happy forever. :)
Actually, 3 lang naman wish ko talaga:
1) makapasa sa lahat ng subjects ko this summer
2) makahanap ng trabaho ASAP, at
3) muling makakain ng pagkaing fastfood, restoran, etc. namimiss ko na ang feeling ng isang busog. :)

Maraming salamat sa lahat ng taong nagmamahal sakin! yea ba!

Byahe

Nakakahiya mang aminin, aaminin ko na (sabay ganun!haha). Geography major ako pero susme, kung alam nyo lang. di pa rin ako maka-follow ng simpleng direksyon. Ang resulta? isang engot na batang naglalakad sa kahabaan ng buendia! Excuse me lang pero sa mga hindi nakakaalam, mahaba-haba po iyon. Oh well. Bakit ikamo ko nasa Buendia? E ano pa, para maghanap ng trabaho. Walang wala na talaga kasi kong resources e, kaya kailangan na talagang magka-trabaho ASAP. Yung pamasahe ko nga e care of popsie pa e. Hehe. Madaming salamat (pagaling ka na uy!)

Pero seriously speaking, biglang nas-evaporate ang pag-asa ko sa buhay. I sorta reached a very low level in my life. E kamusta naman?Kahit nung mga panahong nag-wo-worry na ko dahil wala na kong matirhan o kesyo wala na kong makain di naman ako umabot sa ganitong point. Medyo onti na lang. hehe. Kasi naman. Bakit nga ba? Paglabas ko sa People Support at sa Export Bank Plaza narealize ko na wala akong mapapala kung ako lang talaga ang aasahan. Kinakain na ko ng nerbyos ko at takot sa mga pormalidad na ganun. Nakakainis kasi alam kong kailangan yun at natural lang ang mga bagay na yun. Grr. Bakit ba kasi hindi ako sinanay ng mga nagpalaki sakin na mag-interact sa ganoong pamamaraan. Sorry talaga, pero kahit nasa UP ako hindi pa rin nadagdagan ang kumpyansa ko sa sarili ko. parang sa UP ako nagsimulang matutong magsalita. So, pano ba yan? Nakakaiyak. Nakakalungkot. I think ito na ang simula ng libo-libong rejection na matatanggap ko sa buhay ko. Hay buhay.


***
Hunny! Sana mabasa mo 'to. Sensya na, walang load e. :) Kahit naman nahihiya ako, isasantabi ko na muna yun. hehe. Maraming maraming salamat sainyo ng pamilya mo. Ano ba? Ano bang ginawa ko nung past lifetime ko to deserve you, Ate Grace, Izay, Popsie, Pam, Weng, Kimi, Len...and so on and so on..Andami nyo na nga e, medyo ang haba na ng listahan ko. haha!Pag nakausap mo si ate, kumusta mo na lang ako.di ko sya matext kasi ala nga kong load at ngayon lang uli ako nakapagnet after 10 years!Next net ko most probably ay sa birthday ko na lang. :)

***
share ko lang sa mga kaibigan ko: last long weekend (April 29-May 1) ay nagpunta ko ng Baguio. Yup, Baguio. Sandali..lemme explain. Onga wala kong pera (totoo pa rin yun!) so pano ko nakapunta dun? Courtesy na po iyon ng mga kaibigan dun sa itaas ng bundok Baguio at take note: utang pa din yung iba. Kaya nga wala naman talaga kong nabili e. Sobrang excited at tuwa ko lang talaga ksi FIRST time kong umakyat dun sa Pine City. At oh my gulay! maganda dun..lammeegg nga pala talaga. Kaso andaming tao kasi long weekend nga so sinamantala na yata ng lahat ng tao na umakyat sa Baguio, so how's that?Ang mga napuntahan ko: Camp John Hay, lakad-lakad sa may Burnham, sa resto ni Kidlat Tahimik (uber sa ganda!) na nagngangalang 'Oh My Gulay'!, sa strawberry farm, UP Baguio, Walang kamatayang Session Road at bahay nung dalawang kaibigan namin. Ayun lang. Masaya ko nun, kahit sandali nakalimot ng problema sa Maynila. Peechurs? next time na lang. :)

Grace *

hindi man ako sinwerte sa pamilya ko,binawi naman sa mga kaibigan.

In less than 24 hours, may sumagot na kagad ng panalangin ko. At kahit nasa klase ako nung mga panahong tumatawag sya, naisip ko na ring, "sya na yun." Walang tanung-tanong at ano pang kaechosan, straight to the point. If you only knew how thankful i am for you, for every friends that i have that helped me get through. But I know, alam mo na yun at alam nyo din yun.

Dahil sa mga pangyayaring to, may isa pa ding tao na talaga namang ikinagulat ko at syempre ikinatuwa ng tinext nya ko:

San k?Ano nangyari sau?

Kahit tungaw daw ako, mahal ko si Popsie!

Hindi ako makagawa ng matinong pasasalamat, siguro mas maganda yun kung personal n lang, nevertheless, i just want to express how thankful and grateful i am. at swear, di ako magaling dun. So, yun!


*you are such a grace ate!labshu!

home is where the heart is....

...in that case, i guess, i never really had a heart all this time. I'm still trying to locate where the darn heart could've possibly be.

in less than a week i'm gonna be homeless na...and a total wreck pa talaga (sorry for the grammar, lang time para mag-isip). so while some of my friends are already maintaining their filthy lives under a condo roof, going to macau for a vacation (no pun intended), getting excited on their respective out-of-town dates, I on the otherhand, ay napapatulala na lang palagi even in the middle of something. Can't really help it to think too much and assess my life. what's going to happen to me in the next few days. heck, i'm gonna go to church everyday if i survived the next 14 days of my life. san ba ko magsisimula? ok, ok.so i probably have started already by fixing my loan. the next problem: where to get the darn 2000+ tuition for this summer? I thank Dean though, kasi kanina, medyo naliwanagan naman ang isip ko sa mga gagawin ko nung nakausap sya.for a while some things made sense. the next best thing i can do is to write Sir Decenteceo a letter requesting for an extension on paying my tuition. If ever na makalusot, what about the next days?pano kapag dumatingna yung deadline at wala pa din akong money on hand? at san ako titira after 14 days? saan ba pwedeng pulutin ang mga taong walang mapuntahan. exag naman siguro kung kay mel tiangco agad, pero Lord ayokong umabot sa ganong point. arrgghh. kung pwede ko lang sana na i-cancel na ang pagsa-summer. kaso sayang naman cos i think and i believe that this is the shot that i've been waiting for all my college life. ipapasa ko na ang mga pesteng math this summer. bahala na kung saang parte man ng slum area sa quezon city ako mapadpad.

naisip ko tuloy pag nagkataon ang lungkot pala ng birthday ko. walang bubong sa ibabaw ng ulo ko sa araw na yun. nananawagan ako sa mga bahay ampunan dyan. sana tuloy naging pagong na lang ako. at least walang alalahanin na mga gamit, damit at libro. besides may sariling bahay ang pagong. OH NO!!! so that's it! kaya siguro ako attached sa mga pagong kasi unconsciously i really envy their bahay. hay. mahirap talagang mapabilang sa isang dysfunctional na pamilya. walang magulang, walang bahay, walang pera.

pero sa gitna ng mga kamalasang inaabot ko gusto ko lang ipaabot ang pasasalamat ko sa lahat ng taong inistorbo ko at pinagmakaawaan ng tulong. They have no idea kung gano ko ka-grateful sa kanila dahil nung mga panahong yon na nagpapanic na talaga ko para sa buhay ko, nakahanap ako ng comfort sa kanila. lahat ng klaseng tulong sobrang pinagpapasalamat ko. panglilibre sa pamasahe sa jeep, lunch, drinks, moral support, pagmamahal, prayers at iba pa. ang swerte ko pa rin kasi may mga kaibigan akong tumutulong pa rin sakin kahit papano. pero syempre, hindi naman lahat kaya nilang ibigay sakin. kailangan ko na talaga magkatrabaho ASAP kung ayaw kong matulog sa lansangan.

iba pala ang realization na tatama sayo kapag usapang tahanan na, at least para sakin. Kung nabibili lang sana ang bahay ng 3 dos hindi sana ko namumrublema ng ganito.

***

"... bakit?wala ka bang savings account?"

medyo napanganga pa ko nang itanong to sakin ng kaibigan ko. oo nga naman. naisip ko ni isang daan wala man lang ako sa bulsa ko,pano ko mabubuhay sabihin na nating magkaron man ako ng bahay na matutuluyan. HOW O HOW? pesteng mga bangko naman kasi, ang taas taas ng minimum requirement. andami-daming tsetse buretse, yan tuloy.

My Black Saturday Entry

Even though I'm doing this in the wee hours of the morning and a Black Saturday for that matter, I can't stop being happy (although I'm often being pestered these past few days but still..).

First, the house is much quieter these days because the naughty little cousins and their mom went off for vacation. I'm sure she knows how much we appreciate the silence it will bring to the house and a lot more things. Like watching the TV more often, eating in front of TV, sleeping late (and waking up late, though not that late) and less trashes to pick up. This is more like life. :)

Secondly, i just want to express how much i love Studio 23 for featuring their annual marathons of TV series everytime the Lent Season comes. I was so happy because i got to watched reruns of my 2 all time favorite TV series, which I never get to watched this past few years. Last Thursday, I was able to watched 5 episodes of Gilmore Girls (Season 4) and gosh, how I missed Rory, Lorelai, Luke, Jess (although it was just for a few minutes), Sookie, Michel, Emily and all the Stars Hollow residents. I'm a complete geek when it comes to GG that I used to read their episode transcripts when i wasn't able to watch it on tv. Ditto, come friday. But this time, 7th heaven marathon naman. I just love the Camdens! Everybody missed Matt whom everyone loves so dearly. A long time has passed since I've watched this show. Maybe it's the family thing again. Hey, don't look at me.

Finally, Jose Rizal is (supposed to be) love. The only reason I wanna watched this very long movie again is because i only want to catch a glimpse of Ping back when he was just thirteen years old. But alas. An unfortunate thing happened. Oh well, I could always watch it on DVD some other time. Sigh. It's a good movie though, I still finished it.

Monday is the first day of school. AHHHHH...I'm digging my own grave again. I hope this time, I succeed in finding the best place to rest my weary soul.

Advance Happy Easter to y'all!

ON HOLD

since when did i like enrollment days? never! as usual, problema na naman. pohtek na problema yan. hmmmpphh.

Much Thanks to:

Izay, minsan ka na nga lang pumunta ng UP at minsan na lang tayo magkita, nautangan ka pa. hehe.

Juneeeee, had a wonderful lunch with you and Izay. :)

Em, for bringing up my hopes. haha!

geog peeps, dahil nakakita na naman ako ng familiar faces. :)

Multiply.com, dahil nakapag-stalk na naman ako. woohoo!

Peyups for keeping me updated

....and of course, the Mighty Man Up There who keeps on teasing me but never gets tired of providing people to get me through. Haayy.


*my forn 5

was tagged by ice..

thank you, thank you for the nice remarks. :) never knew that fact.
my music choices as of now are kinda varied, not the usual slammin or melancholic or rocking type that i love. but still, there are traces.

1) Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson- because i can relate to this song and I'm really feeling now that this is my anthem. haha!

2) Unwritten by Natasha Beddingfield- it has very nice lyrics. sooo positive.

3) I Don't Wanna Be by Gavin DeGraw- Just because. :) you've got to understand that the OTH bug has caught me, thus, the obsession with Gavin.

4) Mixed Tape by Jack's Mannequin- i just like the rhythmn..LSS since vacation.

5) Work by Jimmy Eat World- the song that never fails to lighten up my day.

6) Collide by Howie Day-so he's probably getting mainstream now, but i still like him.love the lyrics "...even the best fall down sometimes.."

7) Sophmore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year by Fall Out Boy- for one serious thumping. these sugars rock!

Well, I'm not sure if anybody takes me seriously with this tagging thing, but hey, i hafta pass this to somebody else. So, the [un]lucky ones are: hunny, te greyz, jillian, ed, boy okoy, kimpoy and yang. i'm really not sure if they're gonna comply. oh well..:)

PS: the following is the lyrics of a song i've been looking since forever. i kinda got 'dyahe' to ask another question to NU dj's. Baka makahalata na sila that it's been the same person all along. haha!


Rapture
-Seed

Stay with me
Find time waste it on me
You'll see the trouble I've been through today

We can be like cats and creepy crawly
Pick the bugs from my hair like a monkey
Take an elephant ride down to the sea
This is the last day of mine

Stay with me
Find time waste it on me
You'll see the trouble I've been through today

We can skinny dip with the sea lions
Get octopus hugs till the tides come in
Lay upon the rocks and blow dandelions
This is the last day of mine

Tickle my nose
With another rose

Stay with me
Find time waste it on me
You'll see the trouble I've been through today

Stay with me...

haaayyy...

Happy 1st My Bloggy!

How fast time flies! I actually didn't notice that my blog has just celebrated its first year of existence in the busy world of technology.

A lot has already been said in this blog,some could even be redundant. About me, my views, my complicated life, the progressive though minimal victories with my academic loads, my regular sentiments, fears, happiness and everything in between. I hope I can still do this in years to come. And by that time i hope I'm not a lowly math-ass student anymore. haha!

Cheers to May!

Happy April Fool's Day!

Pano ba 'to dapat sine-celebrate? di ba dapat with a practical joke? sayang! wala akong mapagpraktisan. :)

Where do I go from here?

As my second semester (and an almost normal life) officially ends today, i can't help but compared what i felt on my first day in school from a new house to my last day in school, still from the same house. It was a weird feeling. Probably reality's way to let everything sink in on me and wake me up from my long reverie. Even though it's such a shame to admit it in here (where God knows who else reads this crap anyway), in a way it can probably do me good. How ironic, that almost 3 years ago, on my way to school, I was crying because everything that was happening to me then was SO not fair. The moving, the financial issues and the new life. Earlier, on my way to school, I was crying because once again my life is about to completely change. I wasn't really sad or anything because of what was about to happen to me, i am more worried of what will become of me after this.

A Series of Unfortunate Events
Life in house is madness. It's getting too chaotic there now that people are having a hard time mulling their own thoughts. Decisions are being made left and right, and I guess, I can't blame anyone of their reactions to this and that. So the news definitely caught us (me) unprepared, but i had no bad feelings or anything. How could I in the first place. And then, there was my tita's incident a couple of nights ago. She really needs to rest more often cos if she don't, she'd better find a new mother for her kids SOON!
As for my academic life. oh well, oh well. This semester is what I call mediocre sem. I could have done better, but I did not. I could have done more, but i did not. So, don't expect anything good about me this sem. I'm just glad it's now over.
Friends,i gotta say this: I am now officially behind. Although I've catched up for a while, everything came back to its places when I heard news of this-and-that and so-and-so that my mind simply gave up. What can I say? That's probably what you get when you love turtles a lot. haha.
Speaking of reptiles, I have another bad news not concerning the reptile species though. Our belove Pingping died last tuesday. While I was eating dinner, I noticed that only two fishes are swimming in the aquarium: there's no Pingping in sight! Gasp. I actually did panic that I asked my 3 year old cousin to go check if Pingping was just inside the well (they have a well inside the aquarium). Nada. Nil. Good thing my cousin did not see him lifeless because if he ever did, two dorks would be crying by then. Again. wherever do fishes go when they die, I hope there's water there.

I don't know where to put my story with juraine but i'm pretty sure that I don't want her there in the Unfortunate events (it was already awfully unfortunate). I'd like to relieve the happier days we had when she was here in Diliman. I know that she knows how happy she made me when she gave me copies of OTH in CDs. Though there were mishaps, they were minor enough to affect me. Besides, whatever she failed to give me, she gladly replaced. Our (Kimi and I) short moments with her definitely rocked. HAha! Love you fishy-fishy appel!



(the pix above was taken and given to me by kimi who unabashedly called me a technomoron!Suits me just fine. Juraine said to take a picture of me because I was on my darndest giddy moments and everything was just something that happens very often to me. See? I am such a boring creature.)

So what now? The thing that I am absolutely sure is what would happen to me in the coming days. It'll fonna be a heck of rollercoaster ride, rainy days, gloomy and sad me. That I'm sure. Wherever my destiny brings me in the next 60 days, I wish for strength and humor for me to take everything well despite future hardships. And I do hope that someday, somebody would answer when they hear a knock on their door, cos who knows, it's probably gonna be me.