Monday, August 29, 2005


Let There Be Love

Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?
Let there be love

I hope the weather is calm as you sail up your heavenly stream
Suspended clear in the sky are the words that we sing in our dreams
Let there be love

Come on Baby Blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky
But if it makes you happy
Keep on clapping
Just remember Ill be by your side
And if you dont let go its gonna pass you by

Noel's part is the best. The brothers are on it again. They may have had their share of embarassing quarrels in the past, it is obviously not the current state. they must have soften up...a bit. If they actually lasts longer than a year without fighting one another, well, they're really gonna be one hell of a band. Talk about Britpop. (britpop's not necessarily pop. it's actually the rock scene movers which includes of Oasis, Coldplay, Blur, The Killers, etc).

Sunday, August 28, 2005

current obsessions

Sa wakas, natapos ko na din ang Black House after 11 years! I actually did it. Not touch the book and read on until the wee hours of the morning. Kailangan talagang di magpa-tempt dahil sobrang toxic ang nakaraang linggong 'to para sa akin! Buti na lang at tapos na. Nwey, back to Jack Sawyer. Di ko inaasahan ang ending ng Black House. Honest. Nagulat ako. I guess, nasanay lang ako sa usual open-ended stories. Although, I must admit na hindi ako natuwa sa kanya nung inumpisahan ko sya. Nakakabore kasi. Pero syempre, pinagtyagaan ko pa rin. May magaganda namang part pero yun pa kamo yung maiiksi. Hay.. Ano kayang nasa utak nila pareng Stephen at Peter no! siguro nag-expect lang ako ng further explanations at pangyayari sa buhay ni Jack right after the Talisman years. Obviously, iba ang nasa isip nila nung ginawa nila ang BH.

Can't wait to read the Dark Tower Series. Hay...oras, kailangan ko ng oras!

Wonder if I have my own twinner. Hmmm. Magandang escape ang pagpunta sa Territories especially at times like these.. too much chaos in the world..

Already had too many discussions regarding HP6. Medyo nagiging redundant na din ako kaya di na ko mag-e-elaborate pa. Excited na ko sa HP7 pero naman, in 2 years pa yata yun. Imagine! two long years..

Hmm..DD's not dead.

Ayokong paniwalaan pero maybe, just maybe, Snape isn't too bad after all.

Anong utak meron ka JK!

Music Musings

i can't seem to find the lyrics of this Mojofly song "tumatakbo" (unless if i buy the album maybe!). Sapul na sapul. For the lack of better words to say. Sabi nga ni Lougee kanina (we're so close!) sa jam sessions kanina, para talaga sya sa mga taong tumatanda na... I see...

Sobrang cool talaga ang Bridge! lil_honey, burn mo naman ako cd nila. hehe. Syempre, di pa kaya ng budget ko as of now. daming pinagkakagastusan. Guest naman sila sa RT Live Sessions ngayon na! Patapos na pala actually. Galing galing talaga at pambihirang patis talaga, pamatay ang boses ni bokalistang Danao. sayang di sila nag-cover ng pearl jam ngayon. DMB lang, pero oks pa rin. Mabuhay ang musikerong pinoy!

Di ko pa mahanap ang Video ng "Let there Be Love", meron na kaya? Gusto ko nang makita. sana maganda din, kasing soothing ng boses ni Noel. :)
Happy Sunday!

fatal for this life

kumusta naman ang may 2 exams? Maswerte pa nga kung maka-14 per cent ako sa Math 14. Badtrip! Arrrgghh!

I know, I know it's my fault, who else is to blame? Andaming beses kong pinalampas ang pagkakataon na mag-aral. Nakakaantok kasi. Nakakatamad. Kaya ayan, tatamarin din sila sa pag-ge-grade sakin. Waahhh.

Inatake na naman ako ng katamaran at antok sa mismong exam. Lagi na lang. Mga 30 minutes akong wasted at walang ginagawa dahil sobrang blangko ang utak ko. kahit nga yata tong artik na ito e feeling ko wala din sa ayos. Arrggghhh.

tsaka na..


15 minutes! Late ako ng 15 minutes sa sinabing call time sa conference. Tsk, tsk. This is not me. Buti na lang e wala pang ibang tao aside from the other staff. Ladies and Gentlemen, we were actually behind the original schedule and would you believe that the opening speaker was actually the one who suggested to start the program. so much for preparation. Nagulat pa ko dahil first time kong makitang magalit si Sir Mel. Yes! our very own Sir Mel was actually bellowing that morning. Nwey, buti na lang naayos din agad.

Masaya naman sya in fairness. Binawi ng food at sangkatutak na peechur taking. May trabaho pa nga in between pero okay lang naman. At least nagawa ko yung isang bagay na dapat ko talagang ma-accomplish that day: magpa-evaluate. Which brings me to my age-old question again. Hay, ako okay lang naman, pero sila, ayaw na nila.hehe.

Food was really great though, especially the veggie stuff and the wonderful watermelon, kahit di sya ganun katamis. It's not everyday I get to eat one of those anyway, so keri lang.

Everywhere I turn, conversations are flying. Ang liit talaga ng mundo para sa mga Geography majors sa Pinas! E kami lang yun eh! But I'm glad that I am one of them. ngers..

By the way, something happened along the way...:)

Saturday, August 27, 2005

In A Nutshell

gusto kong ikwento lahat ng nangyari sakin these past few days kaya lang sa sobrang dami ng mga yun, di ko rin maja-justify lahat no matter how good or bad pa. so, saan ba ko dapat magsimula..

Medyo hell week ang linggong ito para sa akin. Andaming lugar at pangyayari na gusto kong puntahan na syempre hindi naman pwede di ba! Nagkapatung-patong sila to the point na marami akong nakalimutan at napabayaan. So, gudlak na lang sa graduation na pinapangarap ko.

Napaka-redundant ko pa. Tsk.Tsk. Ansagwa.

Friday, August 26, 2005

Mah Soul Brotha'

Here is a guy whom i would like to think as my guy version. Although there is so much more in him than there could be in me, i see the similarities all the same. My first taste of raining trivias, gizmos, airplanes, techie stuff, Altic Lansing, Divisoria, super-green as well as corny jokes, rain-soaked ride to and from Batangas. My conscience, my evil master, my mover, my shaker. He is the only guy who knows my topsy-turvy-rollercoaster-sappy-boring-corny-secret life. The one who could make me spill my guts and embarassing mishaps and actually laugh about it in the middle of conversations. The one who calls me by many names that I've actually lost track of counting. Of course, i dare not forget the first 2 names: "May Kulangot" and "May Kalabaw". It's a long story it could actually account for a new post.

He is one of the few guys who actually wrestles me in the middle of Palma Hall's lobby. So, how's that for tough love? And indeed, aside from Popsie, he taught me how to not see love in it's usual form. That it actually comes in all shapes, sizes, forms and yeah, colors too. He's one great guy to have, ladies out there (he's NOT single though) as a friend and more-than-a-friend kind. I have been a witness to his many painstakingly endeavors, mishaps, unfaithfulness and foolishness. He's one of those guys who would definitely go to the limits for L-O-V-E. It may not be obvious but he is one corny and mushy guy despite too much testosterone.

Circumstances have proved that despite his easy-go-lucky and naughty attitude, you can absolutely rely on him. Times might have changed and people might do forget, but memories don't. Unless you had amnesia. But even amnesiacs can remember fragments of happy memories (think 50 First Dates) but that is another story again. He always tells me that soon, I have to let go some of the dearest people in my life because it is the simple reality of life. And when I actually learned how to, just look at the result. See who've stayed and see who've left and never came back. Come to think of it, it is actually happening no matter how much I deny it.

See how good and bad influence you are to me, my friend! But you've done a great shaking and teasing there. Like my other friends out there, I am what I am because of you. I missed our movie and shopping dates, Jollibee and kulitan to the max conversations. Dude Pare, you're how old?! Ew, 22. Two years ka ng kuripot.

Labyulabyu Jog! Whoopee Birthday!

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

News from my four corners

I survived the long vacation as you can probably guess. I did a lot of reading, though most of it wasn’t about my soon-to-be report (panic here!). I listened to a lot of music because that’s the only thing I can do while doing stuff. It was real good, yeah.

It’s been ages since I last visited my lola’s house so, I was real excited when we went there. In fairness, I’ve missed my cousins. Even the ill-mannered ones.:) But I especially missed my favorite cousin, Kuya Ryan! His hair is, surprisingly, now longer than mine. I could just imagine him staying an hour longer in the bathroom. So, that would make it two hours tops. Ha!

I am once again cramming for my report due…tomorrow! How I abhor reports!

I’ve got to admit that I am now officially hooked in “Rockstar INXS” show. It’s good, the music they're doing and the little twists the production does to the contestants. I like Marty and Jordis. Mig is also good but he looks old though. Why’s that? Anyway, a little trivia here: Mig was actually born here in Manila! They moved to London when he was just 2. But I swear I’ve never thought he was one. But he looks really Asian.

Maybe, just maybe. There is still a hope for UP Explore’s ACLE presentation. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

Know what? I have actually talked to a lot of people on the phone yesterday than I could ever imagine. The mishaps will never be gone you bet. I hate and love talking in the phone at the same time. But I could certainly live without one.

Meanwhile, gradpic day is coming. 3 more days to go. Gotta, gotta decide what to do.

*i'm beginning to think of a career as an urban transport planner....or's the darn report! ew!

Thursday, August 18, 2005

what lies ahead is...

a long and boring weekend for me.. oh goodness, help me get through this.
will be hibernating for some time..oh well, see you around world.
give me some juicy stuff when i get back. :(

something from ice

Seven things that scare you:
1. confrontations
2. snatchers
3. mabingi
4. mabulag
5. bumagsak na naman ng math
6. to not graduate in time of...
7. mamatay sa walang kakwenta-kwentang dahilan

Seven things you like the most:
1. Music
2. books
3. movies
4. laughter
5. watermelons
6. mountains
7. ice cream

Seven important things in your room:
1. my backpack
2. books
3. up to the ceiling readings!
4. blanket
5. tapes & cds
6. my TOP SECRET notebook since 14
7. radio

Seven random facts about you:
1. mababaw ang kaligayahan ko
2. pangarap kong magkaron ng alagang pagong
3. i collect baby-sitters club series..wahaha
4. hindi pa ko nakakasakay ng eroplano
5. fan ako ng hanson
6. i've got no baby me.
7. when i was in 6th grade, i wanted to be an astronaut so bad..haha

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. to participate in any fun run (10k up)
2. pumunta sa Machu Picchu
3. Mag-bungee jumping
4. Hotel Hopping
5. Manood ng live concert ng Oasis
6. cross a desert
7. mag-ride-all-you-can sa Disneyland

Seven things you can do:
1. magpatawa
2. kumain ng okra
3. listen
4. write stuff
5. watch a movie alone
6. manood ng tv forever (basta may cable!)
7. cram

Seven things you can't do:
1. swim
2. dance
3. draw
4. pass math? waaahh
5. roll my tongue
6. wear skimpy clothing! ugh
7. forget

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. nice smell
2. braces
3. pagkapayat
4. height
5. sense of humor
6. rocker na di halata
7. memory capacity

Seven things you say the most:
1. pambihirang patis!
2. ungas
3. muka mo!
4. ano beh?!
5. gutom na ko.
6. andyan na sya?
7. hwatt!

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign)
1. Viggo Mortensen
2. Shia LeBeouf
3. Milo Ventimiglia
4. Zachary Walker Hanson
5. Buddy Zabala
6. Miko Hughes
7. Adam Lamberg

Seven people you want to see to take this quiz:
1. hannee
2. graciela
3. boy-okoy
4. ed
5. matot
6. teddie
7. jayson

* thanks ice!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

di ko nagets..

I was tagged by graciela so...
1. What are the things you enjoy doing when there's no one around you?
- read books
- daydream
- magsulat ng mga kasuklam suklam na pangyayari sa buhay.
- kumain ng patago. wahaha
2. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
- loud music
- reading My Girl.
- friends that push me to my closer to my goal..nyahaha
- eating my heart out.
kailangan ba talagang mag-tag? honey na lang, matot at jayson.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

ano ba talaga mariela?!

katulad ng kaibigan ko, nagiging inconsistent na din yata ako. huhu. nung isang araw lang, halos matulala na ko sa kakaisip ng mga nakakaasar na bagay at pangyayari sa buhay ko. halos lumuha ng dugo ang screen sa galit na naramdaman ko nung araw na yun. nakisabay pa ata ang langit sa problema ko. tapos ngayon, ito lang? isang simpleng katagang ni hindi man lang nga nanggaling sa bibig nya e tumitiklop ako. i hate the term. di naman talaga ganun.

pero minsan naiisip ko, bakit nga ko nagkakaganito sa isang taong mataas pa sa Sears Tower ang tinitingnan. isang taong kahit kailan e di matututong tumingin sa paligid nya. hay, sentimentalidad, pag napasok nga sa puso ninuman, hahamakin ang lahat lalo na ang mga korning nilalang...

...katulad ko.

*ano nga yung pangalan ng nagdesign ng eiffel tower at statue of liberty? me prize ang makahula! walang gamitan ng net ha!!!lagay nyo sa tagboard ko.hehe. this is fun!

of chlorine, tropical hut, arcview and domino's pizza

after "swimming" in a hopelessly unfashionable way there is, i managed to cross the darn water. of course, that is after almost swallowing a pail of water (i know, it really sounds ugh). but the euphoria of achieving something is well beyond what human can imagine, at least for me. so, it isn't surprising that i ate like a pig (again!) after the session. you should have seen kimi and I's table.haha! more of a feast for four. Sarsi is not feeling well, so there.

against our will, we dropped by the lab to do some stuff. yeah right! as if i can accomplish something. but to our amazement (again!), pinky told us to order anything we want (as long as it's under 500 pesos only. ngi!). so there, we were once again, lazy 'ol pigs again.

by the way, i haven't done anything progressive yet.

and i'm getting thirsty.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

waiting indeed

"Waiting For The Light To Change"

Brazen is love's redeemer
When you have so far to go
It loves the true believer
For the innocence they own

Life is good Life is grand
When you're sittin' on top of the world
Life is good when it's in your hands your hands
And nobody can change your world

I'm just waiting for the light to change
I'm just waiting for the light to change
I'm just waiting for the light to change
I'm just waiting

All my prize possessions
That I thought I needed so
Dragged me down on a razor
With a heaviness they tow
always searching for a love that's in bloom
it's a warm and soft embrace
Hoping you'll never be lonely again
It's a fear that you just can't face


Life is good and life is grand
When you're sitting on top of the world
Life is good when it's in your hands your hands
And nobody can change your world


I'm just waiting, I'm just waiting,
I'm just waiting, I'm just waiting

*i just love tonic's music.

fading...Melancholic Song Part I

"Sad Peter Pan"
-Smashing Pumpkins-

It's the plan of most
To discover that magnificent ghost
When did I get perverted
And my innocent eyes diverted from the view so grand
Imbued with distractions
I'm greedy like Senior Babbitt
I'm just chasing that electric rabbit
I'm a reluctant rebel
I just want to be Aaron Neville
With a crown on my head
And my denim shirt all dark with sweat
I'm just pushing the paint around
On advice from your lying mouth
You touched me and then you ran
And left a sad Peter Pan
All alone and awkward
But a transformation, I swear it will occur.

*and swear i will.

Rave and Rants

mukhang nagkakatamaran na naman ata tayo.
sorry pero wala ko sa mood makipaglokohan sa prof ko ngayon.
andaming problema bakit kailangang last minute pa nagkakasolusyon.
i care too much about Explore for its activities not to push through.
kaya natin 'to.
God will find a way.
MBS? Life's a beach.
basta ako, one drowning pating.
Go Fighting Patings!
kamusta naman tayo dyan?
all apologies. misyu guys!
how bad can it be. it gets gloomier and gloomier.
sabayan daw ba ang emotional weather ko.
glad im starting to see the light.
willy wonka?
i asked what would be it like without the "pure imagination" thingy,
it was real good.
really enjoyed it.
what can i do? im a fan.
rise all grunge lovers out there!

magandang emo background pala ang hootie and the blowfish pag umuulan at may emotional struggles ka pa.
magkano bang pera ko?

*pasintabi lang, malungkot lang kasi.

one gloomy day the dam broke free

"a heart can only take so much..."
-The Corrs-

just recently, i began to realize stuff. it dawned on me that i've been ignoring quite a lot of things that i don't like about him. i overlooked these instances pretending like it's the most normal stuff on earth, and hey, i was blinded, i admit. much to my amazement, we are still two, completely different person. understanding one person is one thing, but understanding a rather complicated persona is another. especially, if they're too stubborn to accept changes. i admit i am a 7-year-old child running around a big kid's college campus.i am aware of my inner self and can be a bit immature most of the time.but i know where to draw the line. i can be a "deep" person if the circumstance asks for it but i guess, we're all too busy to care much for what other people might think.

i am still at loss for words, so i understand that what i am writing is a total wreck. there. just want to unload some of those "stuff".

*thanks ate for the help earlier and for the advice too.
** for friend number 2 (even if she never gets to read this), i am moving forward...slowly.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005


magpatung-patong daw ba kamalasan sa buhay ko ngayon?
grr! pesteng acead life to..hmmpp
tagal kong di gumawa ng artik.
wala pang kwenta mga ginagawa ko.
gusto kong sumigaw ng malakas na malakas.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

haven't seen any tv and big screen for a while..

one of my favorite movies in the land!

ang kukulit ng magbabarkadang 'to.


ganda ng soundtrack din...kaya lang syempre yung iba puro from KISS.. nevertheless..ok.

wish i could watch a movie soon.

A new (and digusting) look!

i tried this new look,
enough of pink.
it's just so not me.
but i found out that i don't like this much also.
it looks
so bland.
yeah, probably.
i'll change it soon as the storm in my head clears.

so, for the moment
bear with me.

*i don't like it's "orangeness", or i'm just getting color blind?

Monday, August 01, 2005

Random and Silly things

ang kulit ng friendster..hmpph..kaasar.
I passed my math exam!
di ko nakita si clark today..:(
did quite a lot of things today..efficient ba?!haha
somebody's text made me smile a while ago.hehe
I passed my math exam!
i've got to know his secret...soon!
want to watch a movie..been a while.
i miss my 3 bulbs!
where the heck is slime and big dipper?
all righ, all right..clark isn't exactly in my age bracket, so what?
I passed my math exam!
I think i'm really loving Ronald Weasley more and more!
gusto ko ng ice cream!
gusto ko ng bagong book..waahh
ate? you are schmuck's beloved liar, right?
honey! kumusta na ang pagiging bangag?
mariela! anong petsa na?
sana sa pasko may magregalo sakin ng libro (nagpaparinig talaga ko, people out there!haha)
kung sino man ang walang pusong taong umangkin ng paborito kong libro na Starlight Crystal....ibalik mo na sakin yon! Arrrggghhh..Karma.ever heard of Karma?ang hirap hanapin non lam mo ba yon?

end of rantings.

*did i ever mentioned i passed my first math exam? okay, okay. last na 'to. :) wahoo tlga.


i like the way he raises his eyebrows,
i like the way how he remains silently sane despite the chaos around.
i like his unusual innocence, reminds me of my lost one.
i like the way he laughs when nobody else is around us.

but i hate feeling this way.

Now, this is what you call HAPPINESS

i am so happy!
my little self is still dancing somewhere in the depths of my forgetful mind.

i passed my first exam in math 11!
i know i sound shallow but people who know me well knows how much this thing means to me.

i am so, so happy!
i sound redundant and all but i could care less..

you see, i'm insanely happy i could have kissed the guy next to me..or not.

i'm HAPPY. period

*thanks a bunch Big Guy!