Thursday, September 21, 2006

the miles (or kilometres) you have to run for friendship

Since this happened last night (and i was still inspired to write then), i'll have to copy from my journal to retell (tama ba?) forthnight events. haha. so kumusta naman sa kadramahan?

september 21, 2006, 2:20 am
tonight was another round of usual "up there" moments. Although everyone knows that i don't drink i am an ever present member. Tonight's drama was one of a kind. I realized though that:

*being sane or the only alcohol-free person can be tiring too (para kang may mga anak na saksakan ng kukulit at the same time nag-iiyakan pa!haha). But if you are with your friends, it's somewhat rewarding in the sense that it is the only service you can do for them for bringing you there in the first place. And yes, being alcohol-free has a great compensation too!!!) :)

*honestly, ----'s revelation wasn't that shocking nor even new to me anymore. probably it's because of the fact na bago pa man ang lahat na ito, tinanggap ko na sa sarili ko ang possibility na maging sila ni crush in the future. Sobrang nakatulong yun at proud naman ako sa sarili k na malinawa na yun sakin. nad that's that. Although may booze na involved at that time, pero c'mon, di naman ako engot para balewalain yung comment na yun. Subconsciously, matagal na din nyang naiisip din siguro yun, di lang nya masabi sakin ng normal sya. Pero ayos lang naman talaga. :)

*sometimes, there are people whose beliefs you can disregard for a day (or short time only). Who knows we might have been interfering an age-old belief of theirs, whether for good or for bad. But we have to take into consideration that we can't rush somebody into anything that we want them to believe. It'll take time of course, and hope in vain that they'll realize it soon before its too late.

*true friends will embrace you for everything that you are no matter how much you fall short, whatever you lack and even if you're too full of yourself. We might not see the need of proclaiming our undying loyalty to our friends regularly but it helps from time to time to tell them, to let them know (or feel) how much we appreciate them, how good (or bad!) we've become because of them and how grateful we are knowing that a loving and steady arms will catch or break our every fall. In this world of superficiality, your friends don't want to hear of grand or elaborate stuff to make them feel good...sometimes, the "little things" matter much more than just our great intentions.

so para sa iyo, na inspirasyon ng lahat na ito, ituloy mo lang yan. at least mas matutuwa kami kung may makikita kaming pagbabago sa'yo. be consistent kahit gradual, sabi ko nga sayo sa text. hindi mo ikamamatay kung aminin mo sa sarili mo na all this time, you really care for us. :)

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

snatched from klara's lj

A is for age:
22 (yay!)

B is for beer of choice:
what beer? kj ako e.i don't drink.

C is for career right now:
if you could call being a student for nth years a career...

D is for your dog's name:
don't haf one

E is for essential item you use everyday:
uhmm..shampoo? haha

F is for favorite tv show at the moment:
walang kamatayang One Tree Hill

G is for favorite game:
Sudoku (para masaya!)

H is for Home town:
mahirap sagutin..wala kong permanenteng address..parang hangin lang..everywhere

I is for instruments you play:
wish ko lang meron..

J is for favorite juice:

K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
the lazy b*tch

L is for last place you ate:
sa ano..forgot the name..yung resto sa philcoa na never nagtatagal..haha.

M is for marriage:
what marriage? ni boylet nga...

N is for your full name:
Sarah Mariela May Ortega Panganiban (gosh..pinahirapan ako ng mga elders)

O is for overnight hospital stays:
wala pa naman at never kong way!

P is for people you were with today:
juraine, kimi, pam, van..up there peeps

Q is for quote:
eto fresh from il mare movie na pinanood namin kagabi sa UPFI
"there are only 3 things that you can't hide in this world: coughing, poverty and love". But Pam beg to disagree..onga naman..madami pang mga bagay na hindi mo pedeng itago like...secrets, cellulite, fats..hahahaha.

R is for Biggest Regret:
na hindi ko kinuha ang course na talagang gusto ko nung nag-UPCAT ako (but i won't be here kung di rin naman dahil dun!)
madami! ay sus..pero wala na yun..

S is for special talent:

T is for time you woke up today:
around 5 am..tas tulog uli..tas 8 am..tulog uli..finally bumangon ako ng 11. (hey it's a wednesday!)

V is for vegetable you love:
green papaya, kangkong, ampalaya.lahat naman nakakain ko.yesss!

W is for worst habit:

X is for x-rays you've had:
2 ata..nung pumasok akong UP.nyahaha

Y is for yummy food you ate today:
fruit salad na walang condensed milk.

Z is for zodic sign:

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

the evolution of ron, harry and hermione

Last weekend I got the chance to reread Harry Potter books again (after my dreadful exams twas my relaxation moment..sorta). And as always, they (characters) never disappoint. i am still enthralled, amazed and touched everytime i finished reading these books.even after reading them a few more times i bet i will never, ever get tired of reading them over and over again. I so LOVE them. I am still a Harry Potter fanatic at heart despite everything. :)

look at 'em. they were so young then (of course they were!)

and then the second installment came out..

..and this was way, way an improvement for their looks. at least they looked like any ordinary growing up kids with just the right stuff,

..and the latest.
Can't wait for the Book (sadly the last too) 7. I can't wait for lucky 07-07-07 next year. yey! kahit na mamaga na mata ko sa pagbabasa sa ebook makabasa lang i'm all down for you glorious seh-ven!
Syempre there's also the fifth movie installation, the Order of the Phoenix. Can't wait to see Sirius again, Luna Lovegood (who really looks like Loony!!!) and Dolores Umbridge (that *%@#&!)

Monday, September 11, 2006

Lesson Number 1 (daw)

Huwag Mag-invest masyado ng Emotional Feelings.
hinay-hinay daw muna, baka kasi pag nadapa, uber sa pagkalugmok ang mangyari. alam mo namang hindi ka nag-iisa at mas close sila". haha you got me there. so fine, Watch Out Me!!!
hindi naman araw-araw na makakadaupang-palad natin ang mga crush natin. Kaya pag nagkaroon ng chance, kahit gaano kaliit (at gaano kababaw ang scheme), patusin mo na. Sayang ng what might have beens, what ifs and kilig moments (with matching untog moments pa pero medyo kaengotan na yun!).

so, sinasabi ko lang, na bihira ang ganitong pagkakataon. kung ang tulay na lupa ay huling lumabas 10,000 years ago (nga ba??), may pag-asa na muli pa itong lumabas sa susunod na 10,000 years uli. ang catch? hindi ko rin alam! ....ahhh, naalala ko na. kapag nakita mo ang tulay na lupa, GO na! minsan lang darating yun sa mahabang panahon.shortcut sa isang bagong mundo katulad ng ginawa ng mga ninuno natin..:)

Monday, September 04, 2006

the one they've been waitng for (and maybe, subconsciously, me too.)

i do admit it now. after being inspiration-less and crush-less for the longest time (if you could consider my fanaticism for Ping Medina as one, then so be it) i am now once again a normal human being. It's quite hard to fit in in this world especially when other people's definition of normal and abnormal dwells on the number of people you have and DON'T have in your life. I guess it's one of the most frustrating feelings in the world to be asked and be prodded about: the "important" people in your life. If you tell them that family and friends are the important people (note: i don't have the same answer as theirs!), they won't be satisfied and will ask you again about the "more" important ones. E sa wala nga e.Ano bang problema dun? You know well what i'm actually driving at. ayoko lang talaga banggitin yung phrase na yun.

Nwey, that's that. the bigger news of my boring, monotonous but chaotic life. and so i guess, i'm gonna be one paranoid and giggling girl again. so much for inspiration and being sane.

hayun lang :)