Thursday, September 29, 2005

My South Park Character!

Weeee!! Weee!!!
Finally! after 11 years e nailagay ko din ang aking "shocked" south park character.
simple lang sya. mukha naman.
but i like the color of the dress. wahaha.

as toxic as you can get

this is precisely the epitomy of a hell week.
i'm going down...down...down...
Hell yeah!

The Best News So Far!!!

i've been wanting to post this but due to a very hazy-crazy schedule, i haven't visited the net for two days. hehe. while we were watching our friends' "napa-funk-nahon e2" dance recital in gym (which was very cool by the way!) i received this txt message:

"mariela ur exempted with a prefinal grade of 83 nd u hav o absences n geog 185. U may stil take d finals in october 4 830-1030 at ph 206. Pls txt bak for ur plans, if u hav questions, txt me."

the whole text itself, unedited. wahaha. medyo nagulat pa mga kasama ko sa sudden outbreak ko. my classmates will understand how much this means to me. although mababa pa yung 83, pero ayoko ng mamrublema pa kaya ok na rin sakin yun. not bad for 185. My Gulay, 185 to!

Friday, September 23, 2005

Thursday, September 22, 2005

A vote was cast

First time kong bumoto para sa NU Rock Awards. Pambihira, di man lang ako napasabihan na lahat ng nominees dun e halos lahat na ng bands sa pinoy music scene. So kamusta naman ang pamimili? Ang hirap kaya. Di ako ready. Pero nagmamadali din ako at isang beses lang mangyayaring may booth sila sa Metro East. So, go pa rin! Kasabay ko pa nga ang mga may identity crisis na punkista/rocker/jologs e. wehehe. Pasensya na sa mga nakalimutan ko. Kahit sino na lang tuloy nilagay ko doon sa ibang categories. Pero syempre may mga favorites pa rin ako. At sorry, pero lumabas ang pagka-UP-centric ko. Hehe. Kaasar nga lang, walang libreng stickers ngayon. Hmpp.

Happy 10th Anniversary UP Sorg!

Yesterday, with some members and a handful of alumni, we celebrated UP Sorsogueños’ 10th Anniversary in our dear reliable tambayan! Yey! Sampung taon na kami for that and I’m glad that I’ve been part of it. Come to think of it, kalahating dekada na rin pala ko sa Sorg! Yikes. Tumatanda na talaga. Parang kelan lang ay may mga freshie na na-recruit (nauto?!!) si Jonathan (the then membership committee head in our time). Tanda ko pa na mixed emotions ang nararamdaman namin that time kasi nga mga “inosenteng syano at syana” pa kami nun ng mga batch mates ko! I remember na marami kaming sumali but then, habang umuusad ang application ay unti-unting nawawala ang iba. Nalaman na lang namin (after being a certified Sorg) na nagpunta na sa kabilang bakuran ang karamihan sa kanila. Sad to say, anim na lang kaming naiwan. Pero malupit yung anim na yun. Hehe.

Having an org in UP is really invaluable. Totoong home away from home. At para sa mga baguhang tulad namin that time, isang malaking tulong ang magkaron ng mga kaibigang mapupuntahan mo at makakatulong sayo in times of need. Masaya ang feeling kapag nagsasalita na ng bicol-sorsogon language pagkatapos ng isang mahabang araw sa pananagalog. Nakakamiss yun.

The org has been through so much storms and we do not deny that we almost gave up. Pero sabi nga nila, habang may nagmamalasakit pa sa organisasyon, hindi ito mabubuwag. We started again from scratch and slowly picked our way up, and thank God we made it. At ngayon, eto na nga. Sampung taon na kami!

Sa kasalukuyang officers ng UP Sorg, sobrang wala akong masasabi dahil successful naman sila sa lahat ng projects na ginagawa nila. Kahit na mga bata pa, pinatunayan nyo ang inyong mga sarili. Hindi na nga siguro ako nakakapunta ng Vinzon’s these past few days, pero pag napupunta naman ako dun e sobrang worth it naman ang aabutan mo. Sorg has been and still one of my lifelines. Siguro nga priorities may have changed at syempre napag-iwanan na ng mga batch mates pero, di ko pa din ipagpapalit ang Sorgie sa iba dyan! Yadi an tunay na mga uragon na tawo! Laen amo?

Batch dos mil rocks! (kami yun!)
An kalayo san karaba buhay pa?
An pasitis, maharang pa?
An kahimanwa haen na?
Welcome batch lagting! (ano ngani yadto gihapon?) hehe


Thursday, September 15, 2005

May bahid ng Katotohanan :)

Your Personality Profile

You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth.
While you may not be a total hippie...
You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around.

You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure.
However, you do put some thought behind all your actions.
Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!

Found it at last!

"You're off the hook. I've never put much faith in that whole if you love someone set them free crap as evidence by everything I've done in my life up to this very moment. I'm determined to be happy, Joey, happy in this life. And I love you, I've always always loved you. But, our timing has just never been right and the way I figure time is no man's friend so I have to get right with that, and be happy now. Cause this is all we get. I also want for you to be happy. It's really important for me that you be happy. I want you to be with someone; whether it be Dawson, a New York guy or someone you haven't even met. I want you to be with someone who can be a part of the life you want for yourself. I want you to be with someone who makes you feel the way I feel when I'm with you. So, I guess the point to this long run-on sentence that has bitten the last 10 years of our lives is just that the simple act of loving you is enough for me."
-Pacey on Joey

*this is my favorite line, (mahaba sya!) actually, litanya na pala ni Pacey. The best Season Finale. I'm so glad na napanood ko ang final 2 episodes. Madrama na masaya na nakakalungkot. I missed watching Dawson's Creek in fairness. Pero. matanda na rin sila, they have already moved on, so should we.:)

Wednesday, September 14, 2005


You are the most universal mythical beast ever. Sightings of the unicorn have been reported from all over the world, even in modern times. Unicorns are pure and incorruptible. In China, unicorns symbolized gentleness, good will, and wisdom. Christianity links the unicorn with Christ. It is said that unicorns would only allow virgin girls to see them, let alone touch them. They were easily lured into fatal ambushes by a virgin with some poachers waiting for the unicorn in nearby bushes. A unicorn's horn was a highly prized possession, which was reputed to have great healing capabilities. With the touch of its horn, a unicorn could bring back a person who had been dead for several hours. But when separated from the unicorn's body, the magic was significantly reduced. The unicorn had the body of a horse, a unique spiraling horn, and a lion's tail. They were pure white in color.

What mythical beast best represents you? Take the quiz!

grow up!

meron yatang natuwa masyado sa buhay ko na medyo ginagaya na ata ang lifestyle ko. matatanggap ko pa yung mga dress stuff, personal stuff. pero ngayon, tsk tsk. sure na. pati tsinelas ko, me nabubuo nang alagad e!

konting originality naman dyan!

Little by little

some people were wondering kung ano na daw nangyari kay clark at wala ng updates tungkol sa kanya. well, sabihin na lang natin na clark has moved on to a different path, a path outside my system. it's probably true na hindi pa talaga final, pero all in all, nag-subside na ang giddiness, elation (?!!?) and happiness na binibigay nya sakin dati (syempre di sya aware dun no!). at as usual, napaisip na naman ako na ang korni korni ko talaga nung mga time nayun. hay!

Bakit hindi pa totally wala? syempre paminsan-minsan di pa rin maiwasan na kapag nakikita ko sya e naa-amaze pa rin ako sa kanya, di na nga lang ganun katindi ng dati. and some of my friends know this, once that i've let go of someone, for sure wala nang lingunan yun. kahit pa sabihing "he suddenly saw me in a different light" (which is the case of toxicity!), wala na talaga. Ganun lang siguro talaga ko. Fixed na utak ko dun. At least may mga bagay pa sa buhay ko na firm ako.

So, hanggang meron pang konti, di ko dinedeny na meron pa ngang konting-konti.hehe. cos if i ever come to that point, there won't be any looking back for me with clark. and that's final.

of conquering that...

Yesterday was one of the most draining days i've ever hard. I was living in tension the whole time what with academic duty and administrative duty (for the lack of appropriate word). It was probably my fault not doing things that i should have done way, way back. but past is past, i can only live in today, and that day, i hafta do the darn thesis proposal. So, comes the tale of a long day ahead, one filled with tension, dread and fear.

Know what? i wouldn't even bore you with the details of what happened and did not that fateful night, instead i'll go straight to the most important part: I DID IT! yeah. who would have thought? all sort of bad things and idea have been said and thought of but in the end, the only thing that mattered is that i did it. I conquered it. And that I guess, is all that matters. At least for now.

* sa mga taong tumulong sakin na hindi masibak nung araw na yun, SOBRANG SALAMAT! Kay Pam, Sarah & Ice. Sa lahat ng nag-gudlak sakin, malufet ata kayo eh! Salamat!
** sa mga kasabay kong mag-defend kagabi na sina Ed, Nemon, Gerry, Ice, Ina, at Rey, weeee! we're done. at least for the time being!

Friday, September 09, 2005

so not happening...

Help me remember not to forget these stuff that is happening all around me.
Madness. Utter madness.
Told ya, my memory's waning.

Tamad ako

i'm slowly killing myself as each day progresses, pero wag ka! nakakapagbasa pa ko ng libro (non-academic).

reklamo, reklamo, reklamo. pero walang ginagawa para mabawasan ang workload.

ang kulit ko.

*sorry hannee!di ko lang mapigilang magbasa e. papakatino na ko tlga. :)

Good 'ol buddy Jom!

may nabuhay! a few moments ago lang e nabasa ko ang email ng aking good friend na si jom jom. yup, IV-1 Batch 2Ks one and only INTARMED dude sa UP Manila! ipagmayabang daw ba kita dito. After 11 years e nagparamdam uli sya kahit puro invites at creepiness yung laman. the last time i saw him was around February pa when he donated blood to the late Jed (hi girl, how's papa Jesus there?). So kumusta naman di ba?

wala lang. namiss ko lang sya. he's my greatest influence in rock music scene. sya ang nagpakilala sakin sa Oasis, Third Eye Blind, etc. And the whole Pinoy Rock scene. Isang malupit na gitarista ang maangas at napaka-OC na batang ito. hay, the good old times. How i've missed it.

*i have to see you soon padi!


AYAN! bakit ba napapaligiran ako ng mga pasaway na tao?!! nabura ni raymond yung tinatype ko.WAAAAHHHH! Pasaway! Ayan, extra ka pa tuloy sa blog ko. hmppph!

Na Naman!

nakakaasar lang. nawindang na naman akong magpalit ng passwords ng mga account ko. kasi naman! ayan pinalitan ko na bawat address, masyado na kasing halata. gudlak na lang sakin sa pag-alala ng what's what and who's who. me memory gap pa naman ako ngayon. arrggghhh.

Monday, September 05, 2005


Nakaraos din sa FR ng Explore. Congratulations uli sa mga new mems! sana di rito matapos yun. madami pang activities ahead. Kayang kaya basta sama-sama! naks. pero totoo yun in fairness! Mag-active tayong lahat para masaya!
Fix You

when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want
but not what you need
when you feel so tired
but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone
but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

and high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try you'll never know
just what you're worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace

tears stream down on your face
and i...

tears stream down on your face
and i promise, i will learn from your mistakes

tears stream down on your face
and i...

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

* how sweet it is to be loved by him...luckyluckylucky gwyneth!


if ever there's such a word as "wastedness", then good. i have nothing to worry about grammatical error whatsoever (because i am really prone to it), but if there's none, well then, i am making one. i was not the one who went through this wastedness (you can return to your normal eyes now!). i dunno. i'd like to think that we aren't really aware of what we're doing while we hang in wastedness. there could be a limit and can you extend it? again, i dunno. i am not in a position to draw conclusions for i haven't experienced such wastedness yet. in other stuff maybe, but still, there's a heck of a difference.

oh, and in case you're wondering why i stand firm in NOT experiencing such wastedness, because it is about getting DRUNK. thank God for that.

* what's next? can they even look into each other's eyes after that night's fiasco? tsk.tsk.