Thursday, October 02, 2008

sweet C o' mine*

Pardon me, but all these stuff are new to me. So new that I'm sure I may have thrown inappropriate/kajologan/kabobohan words for the simple reason that I don't exactly know what to say or do. My brain doesn't process these things in quite the natural way or rather the normal way. kumbaga sa microsoft e lotus pa lang ata ako huhu. But... Lemme write these things that I can never properly utter when I'm wide awake and sane.

~I have never been given something by someone, let alone a boy, who has to go through more than an arm's length of hassle just to get it. I only have vague idea, mind you, and it's not exactly an arduous task but the fact still remains the same that that someone actually took the pains to get me something that he thinks would make me happy. I'm pretty amazed, the effort alone kills me. Although it definitely wasn't my first reaction but that's another story.

What did I feel after my brain settled enough for me to think straight? Weird but I felt special at that moment and i don't mean the special retarded that I already am. Y'know what I mean. Moving on...

~For the longest time, I lived alone. I did a lot of things on my own, on my own pace and on my own time. I've lots of friends and though I'm not afraid to tell them that I fear of being alone and forgotten, I value and regard my independence a lot too. There are others out there I suppose, who find joy in their solitary minutes and they don't take it as anti-socialism or whatever. It's natural. it's legitimate. It is not weird.

Which brings me to what I wanna say.. for saying the things I also wanted to say but never having the nerve to say it out loud: "we've had our lives before any of this, so just continue what you've been doing. The world does not revolve around us.." something to that effect. I couldn't agree more. So, thanks. :)

That's it for now. I guess..


*Well he's not mine though, duh. just a parody for that song.

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