Happy Birthday Ate Greyz!!

due to the unexpected events that happened these past few days, i wasn't able to put up an updated online greeting for you. do not be sad though that this is all the words i can give to you because as i am writing this article my mind is now exactly grappling for the right words i have to write in my next story..until then, please bear with me.

So, to one of my perpetual light givers, Happy happy birthday my ate! i do, do love you too!!

Back to the Path of the Beam

Just like how Eddie Dean feels whenever the ka-tet get lost sight of the beam but eventually finds it again, i too, felt the same way. I found my own beam back, thank goodness for that, and the past hazy days are now but all part of the past.

My frustration from last week's activities' ended at exactly 6:40 pm, when juraine stayed with me for a while (while we hoard foods from AS!). Of course, everything wasn't OK then, but at least I was smiling again. When I entered the Fair that night, i didn't know that it was gonna be a LONG but eventful night and that it gave me back all the happiness I lost along the way that fateful week.

the Best parts of the Night:
1. Seeing Honey again after a long, long time! Mahabang istorya na punung-puno ng drama but what mattered most was, she was there, just as she promised!
2. On a more personal matter, i am so relieved that everything went alright between ----- and me. It beats winning a contest.
3. Master Rapper Francis M.'s performance in the fair. Akala ko never ko na syang mapapanood ng live, sobrang nakakatuwa.. and the crowd..napaka-solemn nila nung kinanta ni Francis M. yung kaleidoscope world.
4. Meeting Azilana! :)
5. Yung idea lang na kasama ko ang mga orgmate ko that night (especially the young ones), nakakatuwa na yun.
6. Stonefree's Ikot performance. Napa-haaaay na lang ako.
7. the long walk home at 4:30 am.

Basically, i'm feeling good despite my very much failing standing in Math 14. Probably because i already accepted it. Most of the time, acceptance is all we can do in order to move forward again. So, until then.

i was so darn depressed yesterday. not to add frustrated about everything that's been going on. i try to separate my "real" life when i am in school, but sometimes, sometimes ghosts keep haunting me and they won't freakin' stop. i have a different life in school, but sad to say, yesterday was more like a total scene of my dysfunctional family life.

kung sino pa yung mga taong inaasahan mo na masasandalan mo at pinagkukuhanan mo ng lakas, sila pa yung taong bumibigo sayo. mahal ko mga kaibigan ko, pero minsan parang hindi ako parte ng mundong 'to at lahat ng mga pinaghihirapan mo ay napupunta sa wala at nababalewala. konting konsiderasyon at appreciation. kung ang isang bagay na dapat ay nagbubuklod satin ay hindi na nagagampanan ang misyon nya, siguro panahon na upang mag-isip-isip.."

i'm one of 'em

kung wala kayong masyadong ginagawa, sagutan nyo na lang to! hmm..

my johari window
my nohari window

wala lang. gudlak sakin.

*pasintabi at pasasalamat kay pinggoy, kung saan nagmula ang lahat. :)

the adorable balloons!