Remember...

Stand by*

As I finally bid this sem goodbye, I just want to share that I have never felt so futile and bozo than ever before. I understand the "we gotta accept things as they are" crap and I’m old enough to understand this stuff, but sometimes, sometimes I can’t really help but wonder when will my own stars start to realign itself for me to see a brighter future. What is in store for this scarred soul? And when would I ever learn?

Err.. I’m supposed to say happy vacation but I’m in to too much trouble to even say that, so I’d just post this song for everyone who might be feeling the same. Adios.

Everybody hurts

-REM-

When the day is long and the night,

the night is yours alone,

When you're sure you've had enough of this life,

well hang on

Don't let yourself go,

'cause everybody cries

and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong.

Now it's time to sing along

When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)

If you feel like letting go, (hold on)

When you think you've had too much of this life,

well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts.

Take comfort in your friends

Everybody hurts.

Don't throw your hand. Oh, no.

Don't throw your hand

If you feel like you're alone,

no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life,

the days and nights are long,

When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,

Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes

And everybody hurts sometimes.

So, hold on, hold on

Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

Everybody hurts.

You are not alone.

* as what kimi said i should do.

Maybe

Maybe life wouldn’t be too normal after all. Maybe after this task, another one will come up. Maybe I will never sleep sound again, nor think of things the same way again. Maybe I’ll pass after flunking too many times, or maybe not. Maybe I was destined to be a queen for a day and slave for the rest of the time. Maybe I should have closed my eyes, should have closed my ears, my heart, my brain before and for days to follow just so not to feel anything. Maybe I’m getting tired or maybe I could be just starting. Maybe I never did grow up nor had experienced being a child. Maybe tomorrow pigs could fly and I could finally lie to have my most sought after peace of mind. Maybe not in this lifetime. Maybe in the afterlife. Maybe never at all. Just maybe.

Into each life....

some rain must fall.

Exactly how much rain should be pouring on me, i am now oblivious.

all i know is that it's as STRONG as it can get.

The five songs...

...that never fail to escape my nevertheless shrinking brain. Hay, kahit libong ulit ko pa syang marinig, okey lang. Helps me keep sane. Thank God for some music!!

• The Killers- Mr. Brightside
• Parokya ni Edgar- Order Taker
• Fall Out Boy- Sugar We're Going Down
• Itchyworms- Akin ka na lang
• Lifehouse- Blind